why?

Some say I'm blessed,
But they don't realize
I am cursed
Behind a web of lies

So I break a rule
Or two
Some call me a fool
Its what I do

My life has no spark
It is way too dull
I'm always in park
I never feel full

I'm digging myself into a pit
My friends wonder why
Well I don't give a shit
I might as well die

Who cares about me?
Obviously I'm just a burden
That shouldn't be free
Practically all I can use is this pen

So why am I still here?
Shouldn't I be dead?
After all, I live in fear
Except in bed

I'm only here
Because people need me
If that wasn't true, its clear
There wouldn't still be a me

Only because of friends
Am I still alive
Even then it depends
Sometimes I think I'll just take the dive

After all, who wants me?
Ive got more problems than a 30 year old mower
I'm a porn addict who can't break free
I jerk off, can I sink any lower?

They urge me to change
They say I can
But all that I see downrange
Is a false shadow of a man

I think I'm so cool
Cause I won't obey
A single fucking rule
And so I have to say

They are so pointless
And yet they enforce them
I'm such a mess
Everythings come apart at the hem

But I pretend I don't care
After all, I'm a teen
I'm not supposed to share
I'm supposed to be mean

I wonder why they keep me
Why don't they dump me on a corner
They keep me healthy
But never give me a quarter

I wish there wasn't a law
That doesn't let me work
Instead my every flaw
Gets revealed by my siblings before i can put in the cork

To shut their big, fat mouths
I think I'd rather be related
To a bunch of cows!
At least then I wouldn't get grated

Like cheese in a shredder
Every single thing I do
Only makes my moms face redder
Oh yeah, and dads face, too

Why don't I run away?
Maybe then I could get a job
With actual pay
But then officer Rob

Would find me
And take me back
Away from my money
That I earned while breaking my back

It wouldn't really be that bad
If my family actually went somewhere
Then I wouldn't get so mad
I wouldn't have a reason to care

But we don't
Its gotten to the point
They just won't
Even take us to a burger joint

"It's to expensive!"
They whine
So I never get a chance to live
Cause I always hear that line

Some say its just a bias
That I'll understand when I'm older
Well, kiss my ass
I'm only growing colder