And this one's for Angus
that guy that always sat
just right over there
and not one of us
bothered to even stare
or give him the time of day
as if he'd dare to ask
he was always a quiet child
banging into everyone on the way to class
So this one's about Angus
and I happened to be one
of those who paid no attention to Angus
soccer games - he never won
he wasnt really ugly
but of course he wasn't handsome
as those oh-so-cool jocks
on the high school hockey team
who made sure their hair was perfect
no one realized how mean
except me perhaps
but I wouldnt dare to stand up
after all
wasn't it enough
that I volunteered after school?
but of course
I was still considered cool
because .. well .. I really dont know
I dont know how they figure out
from the very start
whos gay, whos cool
whos interests
are not in school
but to making someones life
a miserable hell
on this stupid pass-time
so many of them dwell
so when Angus asked me
to the winter fair
I started to think
how much my friends would care
but then again I would feel bad
if I turned him down
I dared not ruin that rare smile
I just hoped this wouldn't get around.
so there I was with Angus
but I had never really known
the fact that he loved poetry
and loved cotton candy, and stones
not the plain ones he laughed
as he tried to explain to me
but the ones you see sometimes on those nature shows
that often come on T.V
so here was this incredibly amazing
loving quiet guy
why did everyone hate him?
it slowly dawned on me why
because he was a bit different
with his writing and his rocks
and that fact that if theres nothing to say
he rarely ever talks
he told me he was glad
to have spent some time with me
but that he had to go home now
laughing - told me he wasnt allowed
to stay out past nine
so I gave him a quick hug
and said to him good-bye
I was so happy to have found (it seemed)
a very likeable guy
but as the night ended
and I went home
I wondered what it was like for him
growing up alone
he didnt seem to have any friends
so why did he decide tonight
that he would forget the past
ask me out
thats when I seen the lights
you see we live in a small town
where you can see and hear
all that comes and goes
all that goes on here
those lights were flashing red
I didnt think anything then
wasn't prepared for tomorrow though,
because I lost my new-found friend
he had killed himself that night
and on some paper by the knife
he wrote that:
sticks and stones didnt break my bones
they were my only friends
it was the words
that I had always heard
that brought me to this end
so if you ever see another
quiet boy like me
please make him feel wanted
I did this so you can see
one girl was there -just this night
who showed me there might be some good
and I dont know why she went out with me
I never thought she would
but so this ends
and now you know
how tragedies come into play
and I hope you really try
each and everyday
to care for each other
and your caring you should show
because you just cant see
which one of you will be the next to go
so this one was for Angus
who really showed me the way
I miss him so much-
and I only had one day
to get to the know the him inside
unfair goddamit!
was this, I cry
why did he go and kill himself
to get some revenge on the rest of us?
so his memory rests on the bottom shelf
and he'll be with us now forever
.in our minds.
but nowhere else
(-by cassondra)
Author notes
very much based on truth
Written February 18th, 2005
A contest entry
- Sad Poetry...make me cry... by luvmybabys.
300 points, ended November 11, 2005, 33 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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oh my,this is so very moving.i knew you were an angel.i am steadily wiping away tears and i don't cry over words that easily.i feel the anguish and pain that drove angus to this act.we as inhabitants of this world need to look beyond so much nonesense.there are too many murderers of dreams and spirits and souls.angus was killed long before he took his life.the one bright spot was the girl.this sings of sadness but i like the spot of redeemption.
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I feel so frustrated that a kid who had found what he had longed for killed himself upon finding it. One true friend is all it takes. The poem is beautifully written but feels empty because life is wasted. I would rather read of their adventures together and a growth of love and possibility. I could see it happening if she had turned him down and hurt him...but not like this. Good poem and well written. It does cause emotion to rise which is what an artist strives for. Keep it up. Daoine
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sis this was so sad from beginning to end.. although he did have his date.. he chose to do himself in..what a shame.. thanks for sharing..Love sis..
Linda -
WOW This is beauty I love this so much this has touched me on the inside I'll never forget this art and I must say you are very good at this
Peace and love
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Wonderful!
OMG this is so wonderful! It's so very touching. It's so sad that kids do discriminate against each other and thier reasons for doing so don't make sense. Especially teens. We should always try to look out for each other and talk to the "loners". Very touching poem! I hope this isn't based off of true experience because that would be so horrible but if it is you have my deepest sympathies. Oh and congrats on the gold! -
I need to ask you... Is this piece based on your own experience for real..? Very heartwrenching.. I could almost feel me own heart break as I read this. I did "see" before hand he would prolly kill himself...yet the way you wrote this, kept my interest... very nicely done.. Thank you for entering my contest.. and good luck with this entry
Amy
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I found this very touching.The message of acceptance is well delivered and heart touching.Our continuing tendancy to ignore those outside the norm denies those who are "different" the social intercourse we all require, as well as failing all we can learn from those who fit no mold.Bravo!
Peace,Rob -
Congrats on winning third place in our contest!
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This was so sad and touching. What a a story and what a message in it. Thank you for sharing this message with the world and showing us your heart.
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wow .. im just reading this one again. its defiantely my favorite by you. such a cool concept and oh god .. its just so great
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This poem was deeply touching; and weirdly I related to Angus. I was an outcast at school, I went through periods of time with no friends, until I finally found people who accepted me for being different. There is so much emotion in this poem. I don't know if this is a true story, but if it is just be glad that you gave him the opportunity to be liked, and to be with someone, because that's what he was living for. Well done
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That was beautiful in a very sad way. It really made me want to cry. Excellent job. Thanks for such a powerful and moving poem.
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I always enjoy a good character piece. The rhyme was forced a bit, but you kept my attention- which is saying a lot for my attention span. Well written!
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This is absolutely heart touching. Within this Narrative you also deliver a good message about acceptance.
Red -
jesus tapdancing christ
this is the most amazing thing youve written..this is fo sho gerry prelude 5133 (had to be said) the most gorgeous thing on about 17 ½ legs
the background and picture are amazing too..keep it up because this is truly sexie and i dont really have much i can say about it .. it hasnt really hit me that this poem has actually been written ..
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I started reading this and thought perhaps he wouldnt kill himself.. Then he did, which was really heart wrenching. I liked this but I did think that the rhyming scheme was a little off. Perhaps I'm being too critical. Especially around the suicide note it was kind of confusing, After re-reading it I saw it was because of the way the lines were placed on the page, ( Quick note eachother , needs a space). I'm trying to figure out exactly what soured my taste a little, I'm not completely sure so perhaps there was nothing wrong. I'm sorry for such a confusing comment. I did enjoy the write.
LoneStar -
This was an incredibly tender piece...you've managed to hit on archetypes that resonate in all of us. How do we decide, at such a young age, to discriminate for no reason?
A great write. I give it two thumbs up
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this poem was so good i spenmt my own points applauding it which is rare for me!!!! you did beyond an amazing job, this is a masterpeice and it was one of the only poems ive read that had this much emotion in it, i hope this isnt a true story, that would be very sad, i can relate to this angus guy since im kinda like him but i never really get that deprssed about it, anyways you did a very very good job on this, you have alot of talent
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super cool
this is a great piece! keep on trucking and keep 'em coming. -
lovely
Oh wow. This is amazing. So sad, and honest and vulnerable. I don't know how kids know the things they do. Who's the easiest to pick at, and shove around. Is this a true story? Wow, this is good. I loved the emotion you put into this, it really came through. You did an amazing job. Thank you for sharing this.
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this is one of the greatest poems that i have ever read. i luved the way it told a story but in a very artistic and poetic way. is this true, cause if it is that is so incredibly sad. you expressed alot of emotions and viewpoints very well. anywho, awesome write, so keep writing and have a nice day!!!
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