A dead mother is better
Than a miserable mother
I’ve bought the children new clothes
I’ve left them a toy each.
But I’ve not written a note
I wouldn’t know what to say.
I got married because it was in fashion.
And he was in fashion.
But sex with him is nauseating.
I’m not sure how to tell him.
I came to this country with nothing.
Now I’ve a trophy husband, two kids
And a huge dose of insulin.
What am I really trying to say?
A dead mother is better
Than a miserable mother
I have always found the idea
Of Speakers’ Corner hugely appealing.
I came from fascist Germany
Where I couldn’t say what I wanted to say.
Now here today
With a syringe in a bag
I can say what I need to say
A dead mother is better
Than a miserable mother
Author notes
Written February 18th, 2005
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Hi Dev - I can't relate to the suicide intentions here but I certainly can for a Mother wanting the best for her children and in her depths of despair she feels that she is NOT good for them. However the conclusion is left to the reader, which means that in the final analysis this poem could have many endings or outcomes.
It's deep, well written and well worth my long-overdue visit.
Von
Edited on Sep 10, 6:44 p.m. because 'flippin' typo'. -
whoa...
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I love this... this reminds me slightly of the first one I read "A Tragic Waste of Life". They're both so deep and definitely make a person think.
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Ack, I also forgot to say, I loved the Speakers Corner reference. Reminds me of how I feel in Toronto sometimes. That was a nice allusion there. ^_^
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Hmmm, this is sad, but I can really connect with the idea. I've thought of that before, myself, that I'd rather no parent than a parent who hated themselves and their life so much. I think it goes hand in hand with parents that really should divorce, because their marriage is such a sham. Sometimes the destruction of something is far preferable to its continued existence. I think your poem really drives home to a lot of people, because there really are so many miserable mothers out there, and sometimes... just sometimes... death seems preferable.
There are a few places where the flow seems a little off. I tried reading it out loud, and it was pretty good in most places, but there were a few that just didn't click. I did like the repetition of your lines, they helped connect the poem.
Overall, a nicely done poem.
Lots of love, from Arien.
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Wow, this is terribly sad isn't it? Too bad it's all too true for some. I've been in a relationship where I thought I couldn't escape but I did. This is really great!
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This one was really short but still very deep, I mean, it really offers an intimate look into the author... it was amazing
-Joseph -
A desperately bleak piece with its suicidal refrain. You seem spiritually bound up in what you write, without preaching, and you let the conclusion draw itself. A strong piece, as much for what it doesn't say as for what it does. Great to see you posting again.
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this is very deep. I can not say I liked it but I am not going to say I enjoyed it. Is this how you really feel?? This too did scare me. I think you have every right to feel this way but a dead mother is not better than a miserable one. Children need mothers and I for one would never write something like this. I am a mother of many children and I may feel miserable at times but never would I think of being dead. I am sorry you are hurting inside but I can not condone this poem.
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............................................................... This scared me.
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