I'm trying so hard not to let them fall.
I've been so strong for the past 14 years.
I can't break now.
I see them all looking at me with their pity.
They don't know.
I miss her more than anything.
She was the most important thing in my life.
The only person who brought a true smile to my face.
The one who truly loved me.
I can still see her smile when I close my eyes.
She was so beautiful.
I know she's watching me,
So I try to stay strong.
I don't want her to see me crying.
I want her to see me happy.
I know that's what she would want for me.
To be happy.
So I pretend.
I hope she can hear my unspoken words.
I love you mom.
I miss you.
Happy Birthday!

i feel like this towards my grandpa that died last year.. his birthday is comming up soon... and it sucks.. i miss him so much. well i hope you get to feeling better dear. chin up.






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