Plastic

I wish that I were plastic
so that I could not feel
the things that are inside my head
that will not let me heal

I wish that I could turn back time
and rewrite all the wrongs
or kiss his face one more time
and listen to his song

I wish the page had never turned
I wish the well were dry
I wish that I could burn it all
and simply say good-bye

I wish that I were plastic now
so that my eyes were blind
so that I could not see their wings
or hear them in my mind

I wish that I could see his face
and tell him what is there
to look into his soulful eyes
and laugh without a care

I wish I knew where I was bound
and who would hold my fate
I do not see who I once thought
would wait beyond the gates

I wish that I were plastic
so that I could hide my head
and so that my heart and soul could heal
or else, please, strike me dead

I wish that I could turn away
and throw away my cares
to know just what it is they want
and see who's truely there

I wish that they would clip my wings
and douse the flames I breathe
and leave me there in silence
in the garden of our dreams

I wish that I were plastic
so that my heart could never break
I wish that they would tell me
all the choices I'm to make  

I wish I weren't a puppet
that someone would cut the strings
or tie me up and bind me
without revealing anything

I wish that I could close my eyes
and make it go away
or shut it off, or block it out,
or deal another day

I wish that I were plastic
that these emotions were not there
That I could not see what we really are
and that I did not care....