the final end

all hope is lost
among the rubble
of the remains of my heart.
no words can describe
what i so long to say.
not even a breath
can be spoken at this distance.
just a few movements of the lips,
and i would be closer.
just a glimpse,
and i would have faith.
all of the lies
dug deep into my soul.
everything i believed
is now dead.
it always was,
but i was so blind.
love is blind.
no longer just a quote,
but a reality.
the crushed dreams
of a life revolved around a magnificent nothing.
the words of a lying heart:
"trust me" are the crying words
of a guilty soul.
the defensive voice
of injustice
of unforgiveness
of falsehood.
i have taken the last blow.
i have believed the last lie.
i have died my last death.
even the disgusting breath of one once so trusted
is now vanished in the cold dawn air.
half of me is dead.
how can one live with only half of himself alive?
it is impossible.
i have died.
from the inside i have been decaying,
and i never realised it.
until now.
i have nothing.
i have no one.
i am nothing.
because of you.
i loved you.
i love you.
you have destroyed me...

but im forgetting you now,
for the first and final time.