Neurosine• Show poetry

I'm a cynical gen-Xer, and my love for humanity sometimes translates into this futile but persistent paranoia. I rave stupidly against politically correct ideologies. I believe they are empty of value. They only play with meaningless designations.
I don't follow the money.
I ignore the box, and just look at its label, then decide all sorts of things about it.
Depending on what the box decides to do....I paste my own little post-it notes upon it.
They change.
Maybe I rally against amassed ignorance.
Anything that won't look at itself in the mirror.
I certainly rally against prejudice, but don't give shit to ignorant rednecks who don't know any better.
What the fuck
am I the thought police?
No. Yo
Hate if you want to, just don't expect me to agree.
Don't you try to make me.
Let's just get this out of the way: I may think you're okay but I don't give a shit about how you think about me.
But I love you.
Beautiful or almost perfectly ugly stranger.
Sometime people assume I'm a hater.
And yeah...that's true...
but I'm not hating on what they think.
I want to be able to say hey, you're a faggot, and or a Catholic and or a nigger...and it would not matter.
Diminutive people are calling people with different hued skin people they would love to shove into the fucking box all sorts of names, and we sink down to their level and then we call them so many things because....
Ignorance is recyclable.
I look forward to a day when people are able to realize that by being offended by these words we fuel prejudice and give them their power.
They're just words.
People may kill and die for them.
But that doesn't mean anything about the words,
it speaks volumes though about the values people attribute to them.
The words aren't stupid, or intelligent,
they aren't villainous or evil,
these are the qualities only of the people that use them.
How they use them sometimes changes things.
I think it would be great if people were largely intelligent enough to realize that much prejudice is manufactured.
If we all were sincere and taken at our word.....
Earth would no longer be a place to escape....
but a detestation.

I'm 37 years old this August. I write poetry and read science fiction and work on computers incessantly. I aspire to write science fiction. Another nerd in the nerd kingdom. I grew up in a shitty little town called Jonesboro. Named after a dick head called Jones....so... Like most writers I hate my home town. I lost more there than I will ever gain. I don't blame myself though, the place is a ostensible Jesus riddled wasteland. A desert for the soul. I like to visit because family and loved ones are trapped there...but I like that I can get away immediately. I don't harbor any illusions about how it was great and I couldn't see it. It sucks. I see it now. Some cool people...but I will never believe Jesus was anything but a sun god symbolizing astrology...and fucking up everything.
Thanks god,
you are a wondrous and shitty archetype...but thanks...
I'd like to really hate you but I might as well hate Santa Clause....
which brings me back to the ignorance of humanity.

People are fucking ignorant. They do it knowing what reality is like.

I don't want to be old at 35.

it does sadden me.
(Yeah, I watched Zeitgeist...and I liked the religion part. The 911 conspiracy though makes me wonder about my seemingly reliable source.)

I'm sort of an Australian, and sort of an American.

Neither really though.

I'm a cosmopolitan.

I don't understand why anybody is fighting, but I acknowledge,
that it's a corporate battle for money,
we're all caught in between.

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General
Well written intelligent and biting poetry, Science Fiction, Mountain biking, Snowboarding, Surfboarding, whacking off to subhuman porn, and feeling bad afterwords. Also...cheap Cyberpunk narrative devices.
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Music
Pink Floyd, Nirvana, Bloodhound gang, NIN, Local H, Tool, Korn, Perfect Circle(Tool II), Chemical Brothers, Foo fighters (Nirvana II...well), Sound garden, Audio Slave (Soundgarden II), Chevelle, and brazilian jazz.
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Movies
Anything derived from Phillip K. Dick. (Bladerunner, Total Recall) PI is a favorite. I like any well done Sci-Fi movie, (Pitch Black, Aliens, Star Wars.) I like Many Quinten Tarintino flicks. I like the Sarah Michelle Gellar version of the grudge. The grudge II was weak in comparison. Though it was equally good from a technical standpoint. I like Dawn of the dead, night of the living dead. I think my most favorite movie is fear and loathing in Las Vegas. I can't say exactly why. I've never been in love with Hunter S. Thompson, though he is worthy of love, but dead. I will watch Fear and loathing as I watch 2001, Dawn of the Dead 2005, and Bladerunner...
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Television
TV offers so much and delivers so little. I like canned, hacked, and most often, illegally leeched media. If it's really art, or if I would like to see more of the same, I'll buy the product...but so little qualifies. (*Note: If I could make an exact replica of a Jaguar I would, and would never consider it stealing. Stealing is when you take something from someone and they don't have it anymore. I don't understand why reproduction and stealing are falsely equated. They are different. Also, one makes it hard to make a legal case of, the other doesn't.)
I really do understand the phenomenon. I just don't agree that it has a right to exist.
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Books
The Green Hills of Earth, The Cat who Walked through Walls, The Number of the Beast(Heinlein), The Gunslinger Series(King), Cabal(The Hellraiser guy.), I Robot (Asimov), Ubrik (Phillip K. Dick), The Coachroach (Franz Kafka), The Years Best SF (All of them. Thank you Clarion), The chronicles of Thomas Covenant the unbeliever, Kafka, everything Clive barker wrote that wan't quote fantasy. The Cornelius Chronicles, Michael Moorcock....the constitution, and the bill of rights. Also some of its amendments.
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Heroes
You.