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a out going interject almost 17 year old, that still lives with parents, but as a interesting live. But is lonely, cause my real family hates me....no matter wat i do they dont seem happy... so *Bunny* them..... i have stoped careing wat they think..... so i guess its just me.... but dont get me wrong i lov3 my ap family.. they r allways there for me when i need them... i lov3 u guys!!!!


i lov3 to read poems and i lov3 to find new and interesting stories that other people have writen.
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~I'm sorry that i cant be the one that every one wants me to be.. an i cant life my life cause when my parents LEAVE me alone.. My friends THINK that running my life will help well it wont!! i have rilazed that an im FREAKING tired of it... cause its either (i dont like the guy u love, your wearing something thats colored, your acting strange is something wronge, thats titaly out of your personality!!) u kno what GO FUCK UR SELF!!!
im fine I WEAR WAT I WANT IM GONNA DATE WHO EVER THE HELL I WANT!! an IF U DONT LIKE IT "U CAN GO FUCK UR SELF FOR ALL I CARE!!!!"
cause i dont tell u wat to wear or who to date..
SO STOP MESSING WITH MY LIFE!! "ITS MINE NOT URS"
so just BACK THE HELL OFF!!!
or leave me alone!!!

~ash
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Papa,
I love you and I know that sometimes I seem different but I’m not papa, I’m just your same little baby girl!
And I will always be your baby! Yes I know sometimes you are very busy and I don’t bother you… I just sit in the floor and play, but then there are the times that I’m upset as much or less then you are an I don’t know how to handle it! But that’s why you are here you are my teacher, my protector and my provider! This is something that will never change!
Please papa, don’t take yet, another one that I love away from me. I can’t handle another lost!
You are my life, my family, my most beloved friend, my father!! I can’t dear live without you and I know sometimes you might not believe me but I do care, I care so much that I can’t explain the love that I have for you! There are times that I wish I lived so close to you, that all I have to do I call you name out of my mouth an there you would come! I would be safe in your arms and no one else’s!
But you wouldn’t understand…………. But I know that you can understand that I love you sooo much and nothing in the world can change my mind…yes I do also get mad at you its only human nature papa! I know that sometimes I seem like I hate you, but I can't possibley hate you!!
So papa please whatever you do don’t hurt yourself! Cause I need you as my safe haven!!! Please stay for me!! Or I will never be happy again!! Please papa!! *opens arms up toward you*
Please papa stay with me, stay an take care of your little baby girl! Or she will die from no love an loneness.*tears roll down my face, as I listen for you voice to reply to my cry’s*
Please papa…….
Love your little baby,
-Angel-
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a song for my father (chris)
seether Pig


Have you ever wanted to die when you were without your friends?
Haven’t you said goodbye to the one on who your life depends?
Could it be that I don’t wanna save you anymore? could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
(yeah)

Have you ever wished for fire to burn away your mind restraints?
Haven’t you been for hire or suffered those cheap complaints?
Could it be that I don’t wanna save you anymore?
Could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away

Have you ever wanted to die when you were without your friends?
Haven’t you said goodbye to the one on who your life depends?
Could it be that I don’t wanna hurt you anymore? could it be that we don’t have what it takes?

Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
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Dying youth:
Deep under the surface
I keep the love
Older and aware of
A hidden universe
I pray to be young
And pray to be inspired
But the words of your tongue
Blister like fire

I can’t let you go
Slow down
Don’t leave
Dying days of my youth
Over take me

There is a glimpse
Of death in your eyes
I’m not prepared
To let out those cries
I pray to be young
Soon to be expired
So lost in denial

I can’t let you go
Slow down
Don’t leave
Dying days of my youth
Over take me

Reach in her womb
Sheltered from strife
Bearing the gifts
And burdens of life
I pray to stay young
But soon will be expired
An age innocence
Long since gone

I can’t let you go
Slow down
Don’t leave
Dying days of my youth
Over take me

Those who
Are looking backwards
Chose to
Live as statues
Frozen fractured
Youthful laughter
Fades

I can’t let you go
Slow down
Don’t leave
Dying days of my youth
Over take me

I can’t let you go
Slow down
Don’t leave
Dying days of my youth
Over take me

I can’t let you go
Slow down
Don’t leave
Dying days of my youth
Over take me.

so father please dont leave me!!!
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the last night

You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all

I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be
The last night away from me

[Bridge:]
The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand
I will help you hold on
Tonight
Tonight

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be

[Altro:]
I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me
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to EVERY ONE!!!
Seether (driven under)

Do you think I�m faking
when I�m lying next to you?
Do you think that I am blind
nothing left for me to lose?
Must be something on your mind
something lost and left behind
Do you know I�m faking now?

Do you know I�m faking
when I�m lying next to you?
Do you know that I am blind to everything you ever do?
Must be something on your mind
something lost for me to find
Do you know I�m faking?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before, oh man

I guess you know I�m faking
when I tell you I love you
I guess you know that I am blind
to everything you say and do
Must be something on my mind
there�s nothing left for me to hide
Do you know I�m faking?

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before, oh man

We have to succumb to the feelings we can never face
I need you. I breathe you.
I can�t go through this all again.
We have to succumb to
the feelings we can never face I need you.
I breathe you. I can�t go through this�

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before

Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before on him
Then she told me she had a gun
it sounded like she�d used it once before, oh man
Then she told me she had a gun
she says she wants to use it on me now
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"One Last Time"

Is it so hard to believe our hearts
Are made to be broken by love
That in constant dying lies
The beauty of it all
My darling won't you feel
The sweet heaven in
Our endless cry

Oh at least you could try
For this one last time

So amazed how bright are the flames
We are burning in
Ever smiled at the tragedies
We hold inside
My darling won't you cherish
The fear of life that keeps
You and me so alive

Oh at least you could try
For this one last time
It could be alright
For this one last time

Oh at least you could try
(and we just will be closer)
For this one last time
(let me fall into your arms)
It could be alright
(don't let us grow colder)
For this one last time
(let me close to your heart)

Oh at least you could try
(before it's all over)
For this one last time
(let me fall into your arms)
It could be alright
(before it's all over)
For this one last time
(let me close to your heart)
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Dear Bella,
Bella i kno that u cant read or speck (but u can bark, sniff) so i just wanted to let u kno that i u baby girl an i want u back!!! so come home love!!!!
i will sceriouly die with out u in my life i have already cried all night lon on november 10,2008.... when i found out that u have left home wounded!!!!
so plezzzz baby girl come back to moma.................
cause i will remain mad at my self for not being there for u when u need me the most and i can help but to blame myself for what happened to u!!!!
and now mom and phil say tat u r dead and thats the best thing for u (BUT I DONT BELIEVE TAT) i have a feeling that u r still alive an cold an hungry and u r just lost!!!!!

so plez come home baby girl!!!!!!!!!!!!

- love ur mother (ANGEL)-

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Hugges for every 1!!!!!!!!!

smile every day sometimes keeps tears away!!!!1


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this poem is for my ex lover:

Painful love
by Jayzee
Watching you from across the room
sends searing pain through my heart.
I think back to a year ago,
when I thought we'd never part.
My love for you just won't die down-
it just grows with each new day.
I wish you'd dare to look at me
and hear what I have to say;
"I love you and I want you back-"
but these words you just won't hear.
You don't seem to remember them-
all the memories I hold dear.
You were my first kiss, my first love
and now you don't even care.
How could you just blow it away?
We were the perfect pair.
you seem content to let me go-
You're doing fine as you are,
While I'm still missing how we were.
We had the best love by far.

I feel this way about my boy..... cause we seem to be driting a part... but he wasent my frist kiss.... but he was my first love!!!!
I loved my ex lover!!!!! i just wish he felt the same...


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music i listen to:
hatebreed
godsmack
otep
black sabbith
and many more
hardcore rock bands!!!!!
ROCK HARD ,long!!!!!
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