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Hey...I'm Kristina...Kris for short...I'm 18...I usually write bout my feelings...Depending on my mood...I'm not as good of a poet as some of my friends, but mine are not too bad...Right now, I know two main poets that are really good:

Lisa Raines
Jared Gilman (AKA: Darcion)

My life is a life of depression and pain! No one ever understands me...No one ever will...There's isn't a single soul on this earth that actually KNOWS me...I tend to keep to myself...I don't open up easily...

I'm usually a loner and I prefer to be alone writing my poems...Sometimes, if I'm not writing, I'll be reading books...My books inspire me...I read pretty much nothing, but vampires...Vampires or anything else in that nature...Such as witches, werewolves, etc....Vampires and others in that area are my inspiration... Sometimes, I get nspiration from my friends and sometimes from people I don't really know...If you want to know more about me, just send me a message...Well...Later...
~...Love Always...~
~...Kris...~


I have recently found someone who understands me...And I allowed him to actually KNOW me, but I screwed up...I fell for him, but he doesn't care...He loves her...One of my best friends...Life isn't fair for me, but whatever...I'm going to be a MARINE soon...I'll be out of here...I will never see them again...So, no worries...
~...Love Always...~
~...Kris...~


20061120~ I am currently on Parris Island, SC in Marine Corps bootcamp...I have been here since 20060605 (June 5, 2006)...I was in trainsing for about a month (Training Day 16)...I got dropped to another platoon (FRP-Female Readiness Platoon) because I somehow managed to hurt my right knee...I spent three months there trying to heal...I was on crutches almost the whole time...I somehow managed to ingure myself even more...i was diagnosed with PFS and ITBS...I also managed to tear my miniscus...On 20061018 (Oct. 18, 2006) I had undergone surgery for it...I have been dropped to another platoon (FRSP-Female Recruit Seperations Platoon)...I am waiting for my boards to be sent so Washington can decide whether to send me home or back to training...And if they send me home, they have to decide on how much they will be paying me and for how long...So, in all I have been here for almost six months now...20061205 (Dec. 5, 2006) will be six months here, my mother's birthday, and the day I have to go see my doc/surgeon for a check-up...I still haven't given up...Pray for me...
...~Love Always~...
...~Kris~...


20070928~ I am home, now...I've been home since 20061208 (Dec. 8, 2006)...I have been through Hell and back many times since I've been home...I have a new boyfriend, now...I was engaged for a while, but it didn't work out...It's okay though...I am not the same person that I use to be...I have changed in many ways...My uncle is in Iraq at the moment...My dad is not in the best condition, health wise...My mom is having many problems, as well...I am now an aunt...My brother's girlfriend had a little girl already, but now her and my brother have brought a beautiful little boy into the world...His name is Matthew...I am currently working and looking for a second job...I am having many problems in my life, right now...I barely ever get to write anymore...There are many things stopping me from writing...I feel like a lost soul and I am getting too close to giving up...Again, pray for me...
...~Love Always~...
...~Kris~...


20071016~ I am once again single...He heard lies about me cheating on him, so he slept with his ex-wife...I woke up and he wasn't next to me, so I went next door to see if he was there and he was, as well as she...He broke my heart and now I'm closed up tight...I just keep getting hurt...I did so much for him and spent so much on him, I also lost so much for him, but he still hurts me and believes everyone, but me...It's all stupid...It sucks too because I still love him!!!...
...~Love Always~...
...~Kris~...


20071209~ I am with him, again...We are now engaged!...I love him!...I stay with him at his daddy's...We spend a lot of time together...He's very HOTT, too!...He's reading this, right now...Lol...I don't know if he likes a passage on here...Oh, well...He still loves me!...I hope that everything works out for us...My heart is his and his alone!...
...~Love Always~...
...~Kris~...


20090321~ Well, as usual, my life goes to shit...The man that I was with, he began hitting me...I have finally left him for good...I have made a few really good friends who have been helping me get through everything...Things are very hard and complicated for me, but I am not alone...I do still love him, but i am not going back...I am currently living back at my grandmother's...I now working at booksamillion...I've been there since the end of August...I've made some good friends there...No matter what happens though, I'm not going to give up...Those who read this, please pray for me...
...~Love Always~...
...~Kris~...


20090909~ Well, I have left Alabama. There was just too much going on there for me. I left July 10. I am now with my best friend/sister from bootcamp and her fiance. They are both Marines. We are all trying to help each other out. They are getting married on October 3. I am to be the maid of honor. She's going to have me in a purple dress. Ugh. Anyways, since I've left Alabama, I have been doing better. I'm getting closer to my old self, again. I am just now starting to write, again. I will have new poems up soon. If things keep working out the way they are, I'm hoping to be able to write more and also be on here a little more. I miss my AP friends. Wishing the best for everyone.
~Love Always~
~Kris~


20091018~ Well, I am no longer staying with my sister and her fiance. Things got a lil complex for me. I am now staying with some new friends. I am suppose to be moving, again. I'm ready to move, but part of me wants to stay. I have met a wonderful guy, but he doesn't return the feelings that I have. I am really starting to get use to it. I was doing so much better, but lately I have been having odd feelings. It seems like something dark is following. I don't know what's really going on, but i just going day by day, again. Missing you all and wishing you all the best.
~Love Always~
~Kris~