A Journey Through Love (Though Only a Game)
based on collaborations and encounters with VinillaLace
(AP 'granddaughter') (married with two kids! )
Phase I: The Beginning, The Beauty, The
Light
Not Easy (VinillaLace)
Vanilla Lace (wbiro)
Forbidden Fantasy (collaboration)
Our First Innocent Kiss (collaboration)
Complete You (VinillaLace)
Phase II: The Darkness, The Pain, The
Madness
Catch (VinillaLace)
Palm (VinillaLace)
Foolish (VinillaLace)
Do I, I Do (VinillaLace)
Fine Line (VinillaLace)
Set Me Free (Free) (VinillaLace)
Hated Love (VinillaLace)
Razorblade Love (VinillaLace)
The Me You Are Afraid Of (wbiro)
Avvelena i Daggers (wbiro)
Wildfire! (wbiro)
Who cares about a title!! (VinillaLace)
Demented Storm (VinillaLace)
Drip Drip (VinillaLace)
Stained Existence (VinillaLace)
Crimson Tears (VinillaLace)
Quicksand Sanity (VinillaLace)
Flat line (VinillaLace)
Phase III: Lamentations
A- l- one (VinillaLace)
Holding Close (VinillaLace)
Hollow Crimson Eyes (VinillaLace)
Completely (VinillaLace)
Beating Forever (VinillaLace)
An Unfamiliar Me (VinillaLace)
Cruel Ocean! (wbiro)
Sit Quietly Apart (wbiro)
It’s Just Me Lamenting in Here. Go Away. (mine)
Here Without My Heart (wbiro)
Spiraling Downward (wbiro)
~F~a~d~e~d (VinillaLace)
Another (VinillaLace)
Unconscious (VinillaLace)
Foolish (VinillaLace)
Phase IV: Moving On
Mine
vanilla coated heart, butterflies cry (VinillaLace)
Simple suppressed (VinillaLace)
New Beginnings (VinillaLace)
Encasing Cloud (VinillaLace)
Moon Lit Eyes (VinillaLace)
delicate lilys fall (VinillaLace)
Rasberry Kisses (VinillaLace)
My One only love (VinillaLace)
Phase V: Healing
Me:
"If you hurt, then heal,
if you're tired, then rest,
if your mind is screaming,
let it find peace and understanding,
if you just plain ran out of energy to create havoc,
then recharge your batteries and get back here!
without you, our pools go stagnant..."
Her:
"I hurt, from the inside out
My mind is screaming demonic shouts.
pain rages within, withering my soul
I cannot write because I'm no longer whole.
Maybe it will get better, I don’t know.
Thank you wbiro, now we will have a long while
of silent poems."
A Measured Love (wbiro)
The Silent Poem (wbiro)
Happy Bunnies Dance (VinillaLace)
Razorblade Personalities (wbiro)
Sweet and Psycho (wbiro)
Hush Pillow (VinillaLace)
Phase VI: Reaching Out
Taking a break from writing (VinillaLace)
A Special Poem for wbiro (VinillaLace)
Silence for wbiro (VinillaLace)
A New Beginning (wbiro)
Flower at the Horizon (VinillaLace)
Dreams Do Come true (VinillaLace)
Together (VinillaLace)
Phase VII:
Prevailing
Autumns Jewel (VinillaLace)
Poetic Love (not posted yet…) (collaboration)
We are at the luau in our honor
eating with our fingers
as is the custom.
She feeds me.
I follow her fingers
and hungered for more of her…
That evening we bathed in the ocean.
She said she liked it when I watched her,
she asked, “Can you feel the way I feel
when you are watching?”
“Maybe that’s why you like it!”
“Now take me, under the moon, to dance…”
Yes, it makes me happy to see her happy,
and even ‘knocking all the guys dead’
while dancing with me under the moon,
warm bodies pressed close… very close together…
“Warm, and alive, full of feelings for you.
The ocean gives way to our renewed love…
trembling by the touch, every soft memory returning
the way we used to hold…
before our love was buried…
Bright it was, in the beginning,
innocent, carefree…
it too soon plunged into darkness and despair, hated love, self loathing…
time passed us through the pits of the hells of a relationship,
a relationship tormented and cast into the fire to burn,
where the bones of the less fortunate are strewn along the path
there was a beacon for us that faintly glowed, and lit our way
and here we touch once more…
“We touch to feel, not for want or need.”
“Touch to feel.” Profound in its simplicity,
far beyond the what mind alone can fashion,
it is almost wisdom beyond that of mortal man,
and from this delicate angel in my arms…
“Such sweetness in the way you call to me,
call me angel again. It gives me hope
that I am enough for someone…”
“I touch your cheek to remember its warmth,
I see the loving stars still falling in your eyes.
How I have missed them
on the cold nights when I was alone.”
Such simple desires, trampled upon in this world,
and they hurt the most.
Let’s stay together through the setting sun and beyond
until we heal...
“Yes, stay with me and let the setting sun bathe us both,
healing the wounds we’ve caused in each other’s hearts,
wounds caused without intention, and keep me.”
Demons are trying to pull me away… lighting fires in my soul…
hold me tight…
“I’m holding tight, not letting go, not again…
and we are more than the demons can handle now.”
We had a love once and it was lost in uncertainties
as the cruel ocean took it for its own.
It claimed what we had, what we had made, and what was ours…
Happiness, it seems, is forever tested in this world,
and love, brutally murdered!
The ocean tides ever drag the unsuspecting to their ruin…
“Our love is alive in this special place…”
Here, our own private beach, on the sea of love…
and what love we’ll make!
Rekindled like a glowing fire
on our beach in the sands of time,
where the sea of confusion and heartache
gave way to the path back to your heart,
as we no longer sail a blind course.
Let us bare our love for the world to see and marvel at!
“But the others in our life,
they will be hurt,
they will not understand…”
Our love is a poetic love, my dear,
we are free to make it into what it should be like,
beautiful, caring, tender, fulfilling…
our love represents all love out there,
and what it could be like,
a beacon of fire on the sea of love to be strived for!
“What of the silence?
I remember the silence,
for you, perhaps golden, for me, certain death.
Yet it kept me hanging on,
though dying inside…”
You were beyond words then…
and the silence was not out of secrecy,
you were never a secret of mine…
it was out of a painful, unattainable longing
across mountains of hate, oceans of sorrow,
and immeasurable distances…
“Now I want everyone to see
what they could have,
what a wonderful thing we have,
and what we’ve been through!”
That truly would be a marvel,
for it is all there in our poems;
and this will have a fitting title, “Poetic Love”.
Phase VIII: Uncertainties Again...
*Uncertainties* by VinillaLace
Two wrongs don't make a right,Two likes don't make a love
Phase IX: Escape
Phase X: Lingering Nightmares
Phase XI: All a Game?
(note to self: next to evaluate: 'Can You' by VinillaLace)
My Half of the Journey:
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A day, a handful of promises, alone
378 lines, on Nov 1 2:03 PM. In Derivation -
Lost in time, submerged by love
engulfed in endless, unpitiable darkness -
How can you not love her?
Sweet and psycho, -
Death, sadness, cutting, hurt
one last happiness spilling forth -
I am here without my heart
my intellect is much less painful to journey with. -
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She dropped a rose,
I reached effortlessly and pick it up, -
A collection of love lamentations...
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It’s not that it’s tainted, not real, or false,
that makes this love hurt, and I wouldn’t say sucks, -
"Do not grab what you will toss again,"
said the ocean between us. -
There comes a time, a moment, a person
where words will fail you.51 lines, 41 comments, on Aug 30 4:32 AM 2005. In Love -
She sends me poisoned daggers now,
avvelena i daggers, -
We’ve tried it too fast
we’ve tried it too slow28 lines, 5 comments, on Aug 26 8:12 AM 2005. In Love -
like being murdered by chocolate
hot and steamy
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