Laura shaw• Show poetry

my name is laura-dawn im 16 years old.
i write poems as a way to express myself i love doing them and would like to share them with others.I started writing poems to put down the way i feel because i found i hard to talk to people because i never really had anyone to talk to.
I found that writing things down helped me alot to understand the way i felt and why because when i was younger i had alot of things going on in my life my feelings were all mixed up. I didnt understand it at the time but i learnt about how i really felt and why. I never showed anyone my poems because i felt stupid. when i was 12 years old i got my self in with the wrong crowd and started drinking alchol, taking drugs,smoking and doing crime this affected my family and my true friends. I thought everyone was out to get me (which they wernt) people was only trying to help me and i couldnt see it. by the time i turned 14 years old i was in and out of the police station and in and out of court i was out of controll and i couldnt see it. i was sentenced to 3 years in a young offenders unit in the time i was locked up i had been in three different young offenders and met alot of people with alot of problems. I had alot of time on my hands to think about the person i used to be and think about the person i would like to be and they were two totally different things. i had to change and now im out i realise i was out of controll and i would never like to go back to the way things were. Im taking things one step at a time at the moment but i have changed and will continue to do so. I found writing poems helped me alot when i was locked up i even got one of my poems published in a book called bad time rhymes it was about my step dad sampson who killed himself in 2006. He was a great man he left behind my beautiful little sister ellie. alot of the poems you will see is from when i was in a young offenders unit. i have done alot of bad things in my past and i am very ashamed of it. if i could turn back time i would not have done any of it im changing my life around now and hope no one judges me for what i have done. im not gloryfiying what i have done at all but these poems mean alot to me and helped me alot and i would like to share them with others. if you have any comment about them im open to what ever they say i would love to have your oppinion about what you think of them and why thanks for reading this and i hope you like my poems if you find it hard to understand some of them. not all poems have to ryme or have to make total sense just look over it a secon time and you may understand it better.