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So recently life has picked up for me,
New house, new start, (nearly) new netbook, credit on my phone, friends from Tall Ships close as ever, volunteer crew for Tall Ships (life long dreamfulfilled!), geography trip tomorrow, birthday on saturday...... 1
But as ever there is some kinda of catch.....
My mum co
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THE LEGACY OF THE NETBOOK LIVES ON!!!! 1
HE HAS A NEW CASE, LETTERS, HARDDRIVE AND FUCKING CLEANED.
BUT UNDERNEATH..... HE IS THE SAME OLD NETBOOK WE ALL KNOW AND LOVE!!!! 2
HE IS A SURVIVOR!
A CHAMPION
THE WINNER OF THEM ALL!!!!!
AND FOR ALL YOU OTHER LAPTOPS
read this in fear, for you shall never best
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Riggggggggght an update is due i think. 1
I am sitting at my dads using his laptop because mine broke 3 weeks ago. 2
completely fucking blew apart. 3
YAAAAAY 4
hopefully be fixed or replaced on monday???
anywhoo i will get credit soon. as well. 5
life sucks,
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Well, good news everyone.
All i have to do is not annoy my mum for the next 19 hours and i shall be departing boring old petersfield for the oak planks of the Stavros. 1
Will be away for a week tomorrow.
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Im crying atm, 1
Just everything.... 2
Ergh 3
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Im sorry whoever hates me for this but, 5
I really do just w
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So now im sitting at the desk of my dads girl friend at 4 in the morning. Just after having come back from the funeral/burial thing. 1
Turns out i was allowd to go. 2
And shit did it suck. 3
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Then at the private burial,
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Last night my Grandad finally passed away. 1
Mixed emotions about actually death.... 2
.... None for him.
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I hope none of you ever have to expiriance and under-go the torment and pain of sitting next to a dying relative.
You find yourself wishing them to die now, painlessly because everytime they wake, the scream in terror, and drift back to sleep still sobbing.
I hope, and I wish you never have to feel the way I do now
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So you know i said my grandads in hospital, 1
Well 5 minutes ago i just got a call from my dad. 2
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The doctors say theres nothing else they can do.
Hes returning home, to be with our family, his cat lucy, and pussers rum.
Before he dies. 4
And you know what.
I wont see him. 5
My dad is the o
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So yesterday you know what i find out? After celebrating winning a dingy regatta in hamble? 1
No? 2
Well get this. 3
My grandads in fucking hospital. 4
His kidneys and livers have failed, his blood pressure is too low, hes had a heart attack and a fucking stroke. 5
Oh fuck yayyyy. 6
Feel the
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So today was the day Mike Perham gets back. 1
Oh fuck yay. 2
Every day for the last 9 months my dads been emailing him and been on the phone to him, with weather information, tactics and where and how to sail. 3
So, when one of the greatest young sailors in the world comes back, you know what I hear? 4
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So I'm back from that devon place. 1
Fucking hell did it suck there. 2
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But I felt somehow closer to my Esctasy there.
So much so, that I wrote her a letter on the clifftop that faced northwest. 7
I buired it under rocks and earth. 8
You'l never read it sadly. But I guess
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I really don’t want to be here.
In Devon I mean. It sucks so bad. I hate it.
I have no idea why.
It’s that this time, I’m not enjoying it. I’m kind of…. Indifferent I guess.
This place is starting to bore me, we’ve come here for the last 4/5 years, and I imagine we will for the next 4 or 5.
It’s not that I don
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Last night after a long walk we sat down to watch a film together.
Normally im not affected by films but this film i think sums me up perfectly. And i would advise you to watch it,
Its a true story and thats the sad side of it.
But its also everything i wanna be.
So basicly this guy has a rough upbringing from h
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Right thats it, im ofski to the west country to catch some waves.
Have a nice fucking two weeks!
Byes.
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Todays an important date on my personal calender. 1
5th of August. 2
It's probably one of the reasons why i started writing. 3
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God is it only two years? Its seems like three. Maybe four. 5
But two years is still a long time. 6
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Bloody hell it's just making me think and remember.
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Wellll,
my life recently this one. 1
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Yesterday was really hot, and id gone to my dads with my brother to meet the guy who was buying his quadbike. Anyway the guy never turned up and i got bored and restless. So i decided to do something ive never done before(lack of fitness) and go for a run. My dad like
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As i paced down the embankment towards the fast approaching twin masts that stuck brutally above the debilitated HMS Belfast i felt a deep and moving emotion. Excitement. I could barely wait. My heart was hammering so loudly i was sure the people i passing by were being deafened by it. I was about to embark on what w
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I just dont know why i want to tell you this. 1
Maybe il feel better for it,
Maybe... 2
I dont really know to be honest. 3
For a few weeks now ive been feeling.... restless. 4
This is probably really REALLY naive of me but i dont really see any point in life.
(im not suicidal, dont worry)
Im just
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I have to go away for a while,
There is the chance i may not come back,
But a small one at that. 1
You wont see me for a while. 2
Its not just the sailing.
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I dont know anymore, 1
Maybe its nothing,
And im under the weather, 2
I dont know...... 3
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I tell myself this is stupid,
There has to be a reason, 5
But, 6
..... There isnt. 7
So far as i know these..... feelings, emotions are created for no reason, theres nothing wrong other than t
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This morning i had my doctors appointment,
so as i logged myself in on the glass screen i could feel the glare of at least 1000 pensoniers no doubt thinking
"why isnt the young man in school?" 1
Feeling very self concious i sat down and fidgeted, keeping an eye on the television screens that run adverts and
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Well today was a mixed day, 1
My friend thinks im annoyed with her, when i am quite possibly not, 2
My mum is still nagging me for the doctors 3
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Lets cut to the chase, 1
No more bullshit, 2
No more un-essential crap, 3
Im depressed. 4
The doctor said so. 5
So did my mum. 6
And my brother. 7
Even my friends. 8
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Thanks. 10
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I really dont know what shitty little back-stabbing little freak of a virus has infest
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fucking charger broken, no money=no replacement,
u not gunna see me for a while
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Great, 1
the only machine i proffess to know inside out, and love down to the very core,(so much so i would date it if i could) has turned fucking traitor. 2
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Yes if your not sure if im talking about the terminator or my ipod, its neither, its my amazing netbook.
Otherwise bloody perfect in size we
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Hmmm, an increasingly pissed off Charley, 1
A sense of fraustration is upon me as i wait the next 40 days out, 40 long and slow days. Its sad to count but, i have something to look foreward to at least. But the 40 days are going to take forever. 2
My brother has turned up the scale of his patronisment of me
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Yes i know the increasingly common chain of thought when people click on these journals i write, its very simuler to this 2
"oh dear, what.the.fuck.now?" 3
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Well, this crazy time its my very own select luncheon club. 5
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Yes i know. VERY EXCLUSIVE 7
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I cant wait to move out and live alone,
I can stay up til the fuck all hours in honesty, 1
Scream and beat at the walls til i give in, 2
Sit on the roof and stare at the stars without being grounded, 3
Lie in the rain for hours and not have an angry mother, 4
Sit in the dark and silence without getti
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Right this is just a themed journal that i would like to use to bring your attention to a big thing in my life: 1
Neolithictism 2
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Yes. I know what you are thinking, 4
"what.the.fuck?" 5
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Well then, let me explain. 7
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Scene: A pretty average maths lesson, Kat s
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Great so here i am sat in my bed, staring at a blank computer screen, wondering
"what the fuck is going on?"
For some really weird reason, i have had this cough for 3 weeks now, and to be honest, its beginning to get to me. Ive started throwing up because i cough so much i gag.
Great! Lovely!
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