Working on my brain...

I've been working on my brain all week. Actually, to be brutally honest, I think it's doing much of the work on autopilot. I have had some of the strangest, and yet most relaxing dreams ever, and have awoke, albeit late once, I have felt more refreshed than ever. I'm not getting any more sleep than I have in years passed, and in fact less on some nights, yet, I have better mornings than I've ever had. Nothing seems confusing or distracting, and my judgment seems to be a bit better of late. I can clearly see in most cases when someone is being serious in what they say with more precision than ever, yet I can still occasionally be blind-sided.

It's hard to tell when you have had enough of someone, or something that someone does. I mean, if you really love someone, shouldn't you accept them as-is, with all attached faults and differences? But what do you do when the fault or difference is that you are just the pawn, always, with no relief or turn at bat? What about when the give and take quits giving, what then? Is that what's required, to just let yourself give and give and just be happy if other person is there, even if it's more like they are not? Is that still really loving someone, or is that the point where one begins to feel, and should rightly feel used? How many times must a person fight the same fight before it becomes clear that the fight should be the only thing that stays behind?

Does it make a difference if you can't tell?