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Hiking and Tennis and Overall Crappiness

I have had a crappy week. Plus a crappy weekend, so far.
I have become really depressed even though I had tried to make myself not depressed and that worked for probably a whole week and then I got all screwed up and I'm more depressed than ever.
And last night I played tennis and today I went hiking and usually doing those outdoorsy things distracts me enough to make me slightly happy but today i couldn't even sit by a beautiful river with the breeze blowing and enjoy it at all because i kept imagining being with someone else who is not my parents or sister (who were all with me) and i kept imagining that because i'm obviously a freaking pathetic girl! (Metaphorically; I'm really a boy)

I am crappy and depressed and the only person who can slightly help me refuses to help.
I am just sick of [almost] everything. The only thing keeping me anchored down on this planet is really dumb hope and a couple friends.

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  • ixtli
    April 25
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    I'm sorry, Nick. I'm sorry you feel sad. I hope things get better. And you feel better. I wish there was something I could do to help you, but there isn't. So all I can do is let you know that I'm here when you need to talk. Keep holding on.

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