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April 20th, 2009

It is April 20th, and there was a time before I became a mom and all grown up, where I would have gladly celebrated today by smoking a joint with my friends; then eating the best munchies one could find. But, life has changed and I have become all responsible and.... blah... can I through up now! Sigh... lets just say my life has become super dull!

Normally right now I would be at work. Today however, I was pleasantly surprised that my boss only had me scheduled until noon. Yea! If I went home though, I would have to clean; or something equally miserable, and I did not want to waste these precious free time hours doing house work.  So I decided to go walk through the park, maybe stop by the historical museum, and then take a stroll through the rose garden.

There was a wedding taking place at the park today. It is Monday which to me seems like an odd day to have a wedding; my conclusion to that, is it is probably a couple of stoner's who just had to be married today. Anyhow, I found a nice seat on a bench beneath what I believe to be a cherry tree, and attempted to watch this timeless ritual take place. The happiness was undulating like a collective breath encompassing the crowd in a protective veil, attempting to keep out all imperfections and negativity's. (in otherwords, I shouldnt be anywhere near here!) Everyone attending seemed over excited and all smiles. I did not see one upset face in the entire crowd, It seemed eerie to me, unnatural even.

I watched the bride walk down the aisle, she was shaking a little and glowing with the purest joy. (but gawd... that dress is hideous...what is it with the strapless back cleavage look?!) The groom, looked like a smug puppy dog if that description makes sense, the only thing missing was those cartoon hearts dancing above his head. As soon as the bride made it to the alter I had to bail, tears were starting to accumulate and my envy may curse their wonderful union or something. Maybe someday I will have my own perfect wedding day, but the outlook isn't looking to good to this mother of 3, who has never been married. Good thing I am not religious, or live in a time where I would have to pretend to be a widow.

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The tune that is playing in my head today...
~"Leaving on a jet plane.... I don't know when I'll be back again"...

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~Until Next time





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