My Soldier is home from Afgahnistan now. He's been home for almosts a week now. And tonight he calls me up and is like, i just volunteered to go back for another year.
ANOTHER year!!! And I know we're just friends, but seriously, he thinks that he has no reason to stay home. I AM A REASON!!! I have been the reason from day one!
Why can't he see that I am madly in love with him, and would want to die with out him??? I mean seriously how much can one girl take from a boy who doesn't even realize how deep the feelings are for her.
I am his shoulder to cry on, when every other girl leaves him behind. I am his sounding board for trying to pick up new women. I am his confidant and I keep his every secret to the grave, but really, is he blind???
I will miss him, but the kicker is, I thought I had six months with him before he left. Nope. He leaves within the month. A MONTH. And he's going back to his base the end of next week. ONE WEEK. That's all the time I have been given to spend with my soldier.
The world is cruel with its wars and concept of domination. It causes innocent men to give up their lives and risk everything for a country they live in. The risk family and friends. Children and pets. EVERYTHING.
My little soldier is going back to war. I will write him everyday, especially because he thinks this time he'll end up coming back and being put in a grave. He thinks he will die over seas. And he'll die not knowing how I feel. He'll die alone.
I wish i could make him see. I wish I could be the reason he chose to stay. I wish I could give him the strength to fight to stay alive. All of these wishes I have, but none will come true.
Goodbye my little soldier. I will be seeing you soon.
