Destroyed//Every Part Of Me Is Falling Apart
Hello everyone, I am not usually one for venting but I need to let my feelings out. Today is March 15,2010. Current time is 6:21pm. Well today is My sister Ana and my friend Deven's birthday. Deven is now sixteen years old and my little sister is now twelve years old. I had a rough day today a little bit. Well the good thing is Deven liked my gift and gave me a big hug. My friends said I got good taste and what not. Okay so for gym we played volleyball and my team lost due to short people and umm yes I am consider one of them and umm some people in my class for not hitting the ball right. Anyway I am kinda nervous cause the water level in my town is rising and someone said Paterson might be under water soon and it is still raining. Earlier today while I was on the bus I saw ducks swimming in the street o.o. So yeah....I can tell it is bad. Also my bus got struck with water...and a lot of it. We got stuck for a second and ugh some of the kids on the bus were freaked out and I know I was. I was listening to my ipod, talking to Bayron and doing my homework. I was very aggravated because my prom prices changed from 95 to 110. Mom doesn't wanna pay it but I don't know and also my friend was bragging about not having any homework and I got pissed off. When I got home...he told me I was a fake friend and shit and that really hurt me. Because I was there when his girlfriend hurt him and cheated on him. Another thing is he told me he loved me and ugh. I was telling him stop freaking saying that. We are just friends and stuff. I don't know so much is going on. My school might literally be under water as well. I got a few hopes and I have lost a few of hope within me. I know it is weird and I really should stop venting but I can't. I am just very confused with myself and with a lot of things in life as well. I been trying so hard to stay calm and stuff but it is not that easy. A lot of my close friends been verbally been hurting me and I don't know how much I can take. I hate being sensitive and emotional but it is something I cannot control. Noel hasn't hurt me yet but her and I had our fair share of pain and what not. Today she was okay though. She bite me again and I laughed she wanted me to bite her back but I didn't wanna. I wasn't all in a playing mood I guess.. Then today Ricky was like staring at my chest -.- anyway but yeah...after when we were heading to go home Noel told me to let go of her playfully and I held onto her as if I was attached or stuck to her. I almost fell down the stairs a few times but I had a good grip. Everything been pretty hectic. -.- Life doesn't suck it's just the shit we have to go through but it's also apart of life. And yesterday I dropped my cellphone 
and it got scratched pretty bad. Anyway I think I am end my journal now...I keep ranting!! >.<