Without you i felt dead and useless, i felt... unimportant! But days have gone by, like dark blue skies, when all of sudden i get a text and its you, and my insides tighten, and i feel like screaming! But i know this is a good thing, i hope! Even though i had promised in the past to never talk to you again came to my mind, i let it go fast and answered it. You were wondering how I was doing and how life was. It took me a while before i had realized that I hadn't answered his question, but maybe that was because I was trying to find the right words to say? So i just answered with a " Im fine how are you". In hope that maybe something good will come from all this! As I wait for his reply, I pace back and forth, praying he says something I want to hear! Finally he responds and says "Im good and what is it you want a relationship or what"? Stunned by his reply, i respond and say "I do, but is that what you want? Is that going to make you happy"? And for a slight moment I felt alive by his reply! So i waited and waited, nothing. So now like always there's nothing left to do except give up and cry! But for a moment i did feel alive!
