Tired

I'm running out of energy. I go to school full time, I work part time after school babysitting, i play tennis, i'm in my numerous clubs and organizations, I volunteer my time tutoring or at the nursing home...We all know my health is horrible. I spend a quarter of my time in a chair cause of my hip problem, and these heart problems not helping anything. Well now both my parents are sick...My mom has always had these migranes that literally make her bed ridden for days...She can't walk, she can't eat, she can't move, she hallucinates...My father and me use to have to carry her to bed, now his back is no good so I help them both. My mom is no skinny lady either, so carrying her to bed takes so much energy and puts a ton of pressure on my back and my bad hip. I stay up almost every night making sure my mom doesn't have an attack during the night in which i have to rush her to the hospital. Moving her around and trying to make her eat is such a battle. My father still works as much as he can but now if he sits down or lays down i have to help him up. So every day at 5 o clock he yells for me to help him up and once he's home from work its almost every hour. I have to put his socks on and his boots cause he can no longer bend over and do it himself. when he comes home sometimes he gets these awful chest pains and i'm scared hes going to have another heart attack. He lays on the floor holding his chest and trying to catch his breath...my father is very stubborn and never goes to the hospital so I'm scared of losing him...my parents are both 52 and I'm only 16 I can only do so much if my father has to quit his job i'm going to have to support them which means no college for me, no going off...I'm scared one day I'm going to fall asleep and in the morning I won't have either one of my parents...and I know this lack of sleep is not good on me but I'm to scared to lose them.

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