i cnt belive it all i did was love her this pain is unbearable. all i want is death.. more then ever. ppl say i want attention and im just fucking saying this. but NO! you dnt know what it feels like to live in pain everyday to lose everything to walk among this world without a pulse. to see the things i see. to wish everything would end. i dnt want anything!! im fed up.. cnt trust anyone when i tell them i love them. ppl look at me and see my dead body and judge me. the truth is they dnt know the slightest bit of what iv been threw. when i tell someone i love them i mean it i dnt say it cuz i can or cuz u want me to. u expect me to move on when i cnt look at anyone the same. u put so much hate in my life i cnt see good in ppl anymore. i love you and always will but u sit there and not give a shit. on top of it all u slept with my best friend and im still willing to take you back. i dnt know what to fucking say i still love you. ppl who read this tell me if its bad or good that i still do. im just so sick of everyone and what they say
