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a revelation

As I was walking back home from my counselling appointment, it accord to me. While listening to the spring birds chirps and sing around me.I closed my eyes, and let my mind take control. As allot of doors have closed in this last month, so many have started to come open. one in particular that i have wished and striven to unlock.and in that moment It popped open, but just a crack. where i could hear what was going on inside. I heard a lost man, practically weeping for his lost daughter. His little girl. and in that moment i realized that He is as lost without me, as i have been without him.

A lot of you do not know my story behind this. and if you would like to hear it all i can share. i have been struggling with the loss of my daddy for so long. the door slammed shut and locked itself so long ago. i have never really forgave him for leaving me like he did. and the connection i had for so many years afterward, was hard to even let go of. and I have always wanted that connection back. it is so hard to sit hear and type this out without getting up and walking away again. 

I dont know how i am doin it. here of all places i just felt that it needed to come out and wroting it on actual paper didnt justify what i wanted to do. 

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  • Karayan
    April 14
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    *nods* I knew that one day, when you were ready, it would come again.


    • HpWICKEDangel
      April 14
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      this is just a glimpse of what i felt, what i heard. i dont know how to put it all down in words, but maybe i can talk to some one about it soon


  • Dark Otter
    April 14
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    Let the healing begin

    May you find your wholeness in health!


    • HpWICKEDangel
      April 14
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      the healing is slow coming. just to take a step forth each hour is a struggle some times. but it is getting easier with time


  • hisaddiction
    April 14
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    Aww....Sweetness,

    I'm sorry

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