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4/8/09

I've been really stressed out lately. I've really been worried about Jeff. His uncle died and it didn't affect him 2 much at first because he saw it coming but... the funeral really got to him. It got to his grandpa to.. It was the first time Jeff ever saw his grandpa cry... I'm trying to be there for him as much as I can and I'm tearing myself up worrying about him.. I'm getting so frustrated with myself because it feels like no matter what I do, I'm not doing anything to help him. I hate the feeling of being helpless.. I just don't know what to do... I try to sound as happy around him as I can and to tell him I love him and I'll always be here for him... I don't know what advice to give for the situation.. There's nothing I can do but be there for him.. I guess I can't even do that very well... Well here goes another sleepless night.... I hope my sweety is okay. I want so much to be there for him.. *sigh* Life indeed tortures me well.

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  • comicgirl93
    April 13
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    my condolences

    I think if u just tough it out, evrythin will b ok. it may not seem lyk ur doing much rite now but rlly ur doing a lot, he'll remember all ur support when he looks back on it. death is only easy 4 the one who is dead, evry1 else is left 2 suffer. jeff was attached 2 this man bcuz it was his uncle, but jeffs grandpa was attached to this man bcuz it was his son. its harder 4 parents 2 lose their kids than it is 4 kids 2 lose their parents.
    i remember when my cousin kyle died. out of all us, kyle deserved 2 live the most. my aunt was an emotional train wreck, i was upset & i barely ever saw him. that was the first time i ever saw my dad cry. he told me tht parents rn't supposed to bury their kids; it just isn't rite or fair.
    don't b 2 worried about jeff, its just a phase in the coping with death process. don't bcuz then he'll never b truly healed, it takes time & it'll get worse b4 it gets better but it will pass.

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