press press
again
paper punctures
scheduled reality
come lets plan the steps of your decay
press press again
puncture minds
let me remind you,
you are not your past
you are not your scars
you will never have me
drop it
move on
i wish you well
you truly deserve 'love' a friend of your soul
press press
again
punctured question
yes i am having a bad day
yes i have a lot of issues
yes i know i am weird and 'clingy'/ protective when it comes to him
My older brother is dead
that means NOTHING to you
you know nothing of him or me
and the 6 years of sexual harassment rape, and hurt
you know NOTHING of his life or why it should matter to me
i dont trust you
your eyes
your tone
i do not trust you
yet i stand here struggling to explain to you
simply to face my own bad habits old methods
press press
again
paper punctured
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Blind ...
Some people see only what they want to see ... what they are capable of seeing. It's so easy to point a finger and say FREAK, PERVERT, LOSER. Some people are incapable of seeing their own garbage, let alone acknowledging it ... because the moment the did, a LIFETIME worth of pain would fall on their heart. Some people can only think in terms of black and white - revenge and conquest - buy and sell.
Trying to explain, what youa re tying to explain, is like trying to tell a blindman the color of a sunset if they've been blind since infancy. There's no point of reference, except for shadowy fuzzy impressions that have nowhere to connect.
Richard Bach said it best I think: "Your true friends will know you better in the first moments you meet, than your acquaintances will know you in a lifetime."
Anyone that cannot see past their own ego long enough to ask - "what's wrong?" And really mean it. Not for some agenda or tactic. Not because it's disrupting some schedule, not because it's TUESDAY and we all deal with that sort of thing on TUESDAY ... Nope. Some people just don't get it. Never have. Never will. That's when you don't walk around the lake - you say - that's as far as I can go, plant your blanket and make your peace.
We can't change the past - we can only change the now, and thereby change the future, and keep te past from repeating itself, again, and again, and again.
Truly - insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. And by trying to understand the insane, we too can go insane.
Be here now.
Live and Love.
Success and joy in your heart, is truly the best revenge ... and the greatest gift you could give him to release what binds him.
There is nothing more maddening - more exhausting - more debilitating that to lay a wake and wonder ... "what-if" over the past. Turn that light instead - to the future.
xox
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