Confession #1;
you're taken.
& I’ve been toying with the idea of you belonging to me for months now, and I’ve countlessly unwrapped various situations where the possibility was as extravagant as the bulbs that lit up a Christmas tree. In the end, I’m either left hurt, hopeless, incomplete, or okay. For some reason, I haven’t completely taken a step passed the okay stage, because I’m never satisfied without closure.
Closure. We say goodnight, and we say our goodbyes, but saying it doesn’t contain the meaning we know it should. Your eyes are either glued to the moist that dangles from my lips, or my hair is brushing the firmness of your gentle and careful shoulder. Either way, I’m always stepping in chewed gum, and I find I’m always stuck somewhere between your heart and your ribcage, trying to reach for a source of oxygen; trying to convince myself that I don’t need you. But when you look at me that way,
I fall for you all over again;
because you make sense of who I am.
& that’s when we became close.
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You always write things that I'm feeling at the moment that I'm feeling them. Although right now ... I'm the woman who has fallen for another man, and he's not the one that's taken =( I am. Garrr ... perfection dear, sweet sweet perfection, as always.
Much luv to you my darling
TT -
Amazing piece Manduh
Such strong emotions and you've penned them wonderfully
and you ended this perfectly -
Damn. I loved the ending of this. I think this reminds me of falling in love at first sight.
I hope that things work out for you!
Kari -
I don't get it.
-You always write about something that I'm going through right now.
I guess it happens more often than I thought.
Great write: like always(: -
Beautiful language - I'd say I'm sorry to hear about your agonizing not knowing, but I don't know you. All I can say is I empathize.
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This is so fantastic, love.
I think the part about the chewed gum was absolutely perfect. It reminded me of that kind of... "other woman" feeling, like you're toying with something that doesn't belong to you, you know?
Anyway, every word in this was perfect, the first two lines completely opened me up to what the rest was going to say. Once I'd read that, I was immediately hooked.
This is beautiful, darling.
♥
♣ Tegan -
Wow. I relate to this. It leaves me in tears. I hate these situations, but I don't ever know how to stop it...
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