You know i probably enter so many entries like this but, I'm so tired of my life. I'm getting back to that point where i want the right pills to drag down my throat. I mean I have friends I have "Love" But do they really care...I want to die just to see what they'll do. That or end up in the hospital.
Theres this icon thats just like me. "I sometimes wish that I got in some terrible accident or something and end up in the hospital just so I can see if I'm loved." I don't think they would care... If i was in a coma for a month, no one would notice.... I hate it...
Two years. Two years till i can run...Or one day than i can pop some pills or slit my wrists...but I just want it all to end...
yeah...well thats all i can get out...
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i care aven and you know that, i also understand what your saying wanting to hurt yourself to \see if someone cares. to be honest i used to do that. It was kinda funny.haha what i did i mean
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I totally know how you feel because I've tried pills and I've cut myself more times than I can count but please don't do it. I know that life is a bitch and I know what it's like to feel like no one cares about you. I feel like that everyday, but please don't try anything like that. In my personal experience, suicide is NOT the answer and you shouldn't try it just to see if people care about you. People do care. I care. So just try to hold on for a while longer because it WILL get better. No matter how hopeless and pointless life seems it will get better eventually.
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