Why does life have to be so fucking hard.
We used to be so tight.
But back then I was so depressed
Then you left me...and I became happy.
Stopped all that negativity
It felt so amazing
But I missed you so much
Now we're getting tight again
Like old times....
And I'm falling back into that depression
I dont want to have to choose
Between you and happiness
Besides you dont need me
But idk anymore
Seems like life is a mistake
Nothing ever goes the way its supposed to
I'm constantly being hurt and put the test
To see how long it will take this time
Before i fucking snap
Reality never seems to sink in
Like this isnt real and this cant be happening
Time goes by so fast
Its really stressful
All the shit that gets thrown in my face
Most of it is my fault
But some of it i dont deserve
One catastrophy after another
Just wondering when ill finally wake up
And realize that im not dreaming
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I was. Not to be mean but i've given up on you. There is nothing that i can do anymore. You dont care. so I dont care anymore. U know that back then i would do ANYTHING to make sure that you were alright and safe. But you didnt fucking care. So now i've adjusted and i dont care either....and btw im no longer smoking anything. Im getting my life back on track with or without you. <3 i love you.
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woah.
dude.
thats weird how like...
you're depressed when ur with me..
but you want to be with me??
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