I think it will be better when Im gone...my birthday isnt that far away..always wanted to die on my birthday. Im not scared like I was ..cant wait to see my brother. I wonder how bad it will hurt..hmm..no..dont think about that..itll make it that much harder.
I wonderwhat the soundtrack to my suicide will sound like..Maybe "Her Portrait in Black" by Atreyu..and "Dead Memories" by Slipknot..and just for good measure "Whiskey Lullabye" by Brad Paisely.
I wonder if maegan will miss me..and dave..and Justin..and James and Jess and Hailey and Kayle...and Frankie....dont think about Frankie...
I wonder if Ill cry..if Ill just break down before all the blood is gone...before my veins are clean of my murderer father and my alcoholic mother..
Ill be free..so free..All it takes is two cuts..Freedom is just a slice away..how tempting..
I hear the clock tick tick tick away...19days..
solittle time left to say goodbye..I have so many apologies to write...so little time till the day I die
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think of it this way storm. you take your life your taking a part of me. and you know not in the dating love way. in the famliy way. i have know you since i was 10. and we have came closer and closer ever year.
i have told you over and over this isnt the way out. hell i have wanted to end it to but i havent. because i see people care. Stome, open your eyes you have: me joey dave james justin nikki xemaria and a shit load of others. i would do anything for you you know that but you dont talk to me about this. TALK. you know i'll listen.
as for me missing you you know that to. and you know joey will be heart broken because his sister is gone and his soon wife is tworn apart from it
you know i love you and always will.
chur Phyrelynn
Maegan -
*Hug*
I use to feel this way. My life story is so fucked up, and my best friend/soulmate killed himself 8 years ago. But, I agree with deadlypoetic88... it doesn't work like that. If you want someone to talk to, you can always chat with me. I try to get to the library as often as I can (I don't have internet at home). I have a lot of old poetry about cutting if you'd like to read it, but I suggest reading about good things because it'll help get you out of that funk. It'll take time, but it'll work.
Feel better, love.
~*~Gi~*~ -
I'll be here if you wanna talk.
Hey. There's a better answer to your problems. Death is not the solution. If you wanna talk about it. Just IM me, and I'd love to talk to you about life and why you should hold on to it.
I'm sure there are a lot of people who care so much about you. Don't hurt them. Don't hurt yourself. You deserve to live.
My best wishes to you.
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I...I've felt like that sometimes...It would be better if I wasnt around, everyone would have a happier life, I'd be able to get away. No more fights, no more hits, no more screaming...but...When I had said something, I got slapped and held on to for dear life. I was shocked to say the least. Never had someone slap me and then hold on to me crying. heh...but it got me thinking ya know? It's...not the best way to go. Why let them win? I was told to keep my head up and fight back....Just thought I'd share a little since you shared. But the point is...its not worth it love.
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you wont be where your brother is if you kill yourself hun it doesnt work like that
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hey if you die i die got that i can't let any one i know and care about do something like that i will stop you even if it take my life so don't do it or i will live a life with out you........and a life without you is no life at all
James
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listen u don't have to do this shit. life is so much better trust me suicide isn't the option. its onli the easyway out n ur soooo much better than all that shit. chin up and thingz WILL get better even if it doesn't seem it now x x -
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