Urgh. Today is totally not a day for me to be typing but I am... sadly. I have had the worst 12 hours of my life and it's only 9:18 am. Stupid, correct?
My Step-Grandpa Rod died last night at 10:04 pm and my grandma called from Iowa to let us know. He had lung cancer and it got too ahead and they have had know possible fucking clue in their goddamn minds how to cure him. So they hyped him up on morphine and valium so he would go in his sleep and with no pain.
I feel horrible. The last time I saw and talked to him was when he was visiting my family and told me he loved me and gave me 20 dollars. I was heading to work so I didn't have much time with him which in return makes me feel so horrible.
I stayed up most of the night crying in bed about the tragic event. This is my grandma's second time losing a husband to stupid ass cancer. Why does that shit exist? Everyone would be better off without out it!!!!
Sorry about the cussing and dissing god or whatever I did to offend people. Sorry.
Suzann
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my gpa died of cancer too last year
are you ok love?
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