No matter what i still have people that are there for me that love me to pieces.
I don't need some silly lying immature man to hold my world together,
he is useless
Does more damage then good.1
He will not change, no matter how much we try.2
After all this i still have my step mum (she will always be that to me)
i still have my step sisters who i grew up with.
the girls i used to make potions with out of flower petals and water
the girls i used to tent with in the back yard
the girls i used to lip sync to Brittany spears with3
those are the memories i will hold on to for dear life.4
and you know what dad?
you did dear Julie one massive favour
i have never seen her so happy and full of life and excitement
she is an amazing woman 5
i thank-you for bringing them into my life6
your turning your back on good people.
good, good people.7
This weekend was good. i had such a good time with those girls.. i haven't been so happy in a long time.
there were some awkward points when i went to see Nana and poppa.. it was horrible seeing poppa sulk just like dad does.. its now so clear that they are so much alike.. dad may have been adopted by them but he is definitely their son.
i am thank-full that mum left dad when i was five. i would be the person i am today.
so thanks dad for screwing it up.
.. well it ws awkward when poppa was going on about how dad is really a good person who has done a big mistake.
i had to grin and bear it.. they are old people and of course they want to pretend that he is good.
im sorry but he's not.
but i wont say anything... ill let them hold on to that.8
dad also texted me that weekend asking me to come see him. i said no.
he needs to make the effort not me.
fair enough?9
when i was holding my niece lilly... that was a highlight. this baby girl wont have to deal with a disappointment of a step grandad. she is free from his curse.
Dear Lilly, you have brought life into these troubled times,
you couldn't have come at a better time,
you are beautiful.. simply beautiful.
i can only hope you will think of me as your auntie when you grow up,
but you will always be my dear niece.
You are surrounded my good people..
you are loved dear Lilly.
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wow that is so amazing. i no how u feel me and my parents split up to as a child. my dad tried to kill me and my mom. and my grandparents said the same thing. they blamed the alcohol. but no that wasnt it. it was just the kinda person he was. i hated it and i feel the hatred behind this poem. the ending was phenomonal. i loved it. kudos to u my friend
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awh thankyou so much! Yeah it was so hard talking to them about it.. its kinda like they are blind aye?.. i understand though.. to love someone unconditionally, so you kinda have to grin and bear it i guess. Thank you so much.. and man.. your dad...wow.. thats really horrible. im so sorry =(
can you read some of my other journal entrys?
ehrmm "dad, this is for you".. (thats my first one)
"disgusted"
and "you wont see me at christmas"
i think those ones are better and it will make ya understand a bit more.. you dont have to if you dont want to though
cheers
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