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11-6-09

Ido wonder if he is up to something.
I walk into the room and he is on his cell.
But he said he was settting his alarm and I think he was.
But he got upset when I accused him which made me more suspicious.
But I think a lot of people may accuse him when he is true.
And i hope to god he calls me a billion times in the morning.
because I miss him so much .]
All of him.
And I never get it.
Well I do but its hard. 1

2

But what if my accusations are right?
that is what I get so lost in?
I get so confused?
I don't know where to go from there,
am I right or wrong.3

God should let me know these things/
And he has laid is out for me evidently. 4

But you know....
I keep thinking he has meant me to be with him.... 5

I don't fucking get it.
I think i am a stupind teenager.
And I don;t know any better but I do. 6


And I really think I love this boy.
But god has so much more planned for me....
But why am I so stuck on him? 7


I dont get it.
I love him and doubt our love.
And always think something may be going on....
But yet he loves me better than anyone else?
Why am I so 50/50????
It drives me wild???????????
UGH

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  • LucifersAngel
    November 18
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    really well written i could feel so much emotion at the beginning that longed to believe him yet your mind was warning you not to and it just kept it up all the way through really good my dear.

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