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I mean, after all, he made so many! UGH!2
So much has happened this year that will alter every other year to come. We lost my Nanny, and God how I miss her. Sometimes, I won't even be thinking of her, just cleaning up, or reading a chapter for school, and here she comes. Fresh and vivid to my mind...and I wish that she was here. I cry like it is still August 12th, and she just taken her last breath. I still cannot believe she is gone. Death sucks.3
My mother left my father after thirty long, hard years of whatever it is they called themselves. Neither willing to change. Dad keeps his feelings to himself, but mom, well, she likes attention; always has. So, every-time my sister or I speak to her she bitches about dad. We don't want to be in the middle; but that is exactly where she puts us. And, if we upset her, she tells lies about us to the rest of the family. Thankfully, they are starting to see her for what she is.4
Mom has told dad she wants a divorce. Even speaks to other men on-line and such. Yet, she calls dad for rides, if she wants him to buy her a pop, etc. She even sucked his dick the other day after losing a bet over a football game. She is leading him on, and we don't like it. So, her and Morgan (my sister) went to see a movie tonight. She started bitching about dad, and my sister had enough.5
Her and my sister got into it. They both called me. This happens right after my sister gets into it with my sister in law, and I got stuck in the middle of that drama...geesh! They all need to get a grip. I cannot keep doing this. They are so ignorant sometimes, that I just wanna slap 'em smart! My poor sister, she was in the midst of two drama queens tonight...sigh.6
Last night, Krysty (sister in law) was watching our kids. Well, while we were gone my sister called and wanted her to watch her kids. So, without asking, Krysty just took my kids to my sisters house, and decided she could handle eight kids; four of whom have destroyed more shit in my house...Not to mention, recently two of her kids had the swine flu, and today, my daughter came down sick. So, my kids were taken to a house that had housed kids with swine flu. What the fuck was she thinking?7
Anyhow, I picked my kids up at my sisters once I found out they were not where we left them. I came home, popped a new movie in we bought the kids, and left them to watch it while I made mad, passionate, amazing love to my husband with the scented oils we bought at Spencer's. TMI...I know. But, I do have a point here.8
I mind my own business. I stay home, and if I have a problem I write about here. I do not call everyone, and get everyone involved in my business. I have a happy life, for the most part. I refuse to start drama over every little thing. I just deal. You won't hear of me calling anyone to vent anything. That is what I come here for. Everyone else I know is the exact opposite. They call me. I try SO hard to stay out of it all, but it never fails. Many times, I don't answer the phone, but they just keep calling, leaving shit on the voice-mail, etc. It never fucking ends.9
Right after dinner I got the first call from Krysty. She was crying pretty hard. Said my sister, Morgan, was upset with her. She needed me to call Morgan, and explain to her that my kids did not play in her basement last night. So, I talked to my kids, and they stated that they did not play in the basement. So, I called my sister, and got an earful of how she was going to kick Krysty's lying ass. That not only did the kids play in the basement, but Krysty used an entire bottle of laundry soap on four loads of laundry. She was watching the kids to do four loads of laundry, and earn twenty bucks. Well, because she used the whole bottle of soap, my sister didn't feel she had to pay her. It started a huge deal that I had NO PART OF, yet got brought into it anyhow.10
Then, I find out that not only was Krysty lying to my sister, but she was talking shit about me last night. Stated that we don't pay her enough to watch our kids. Well, hello, NEWSFLASH BITCH...Speak the fuck up! I am sorry that my husband only makes fifteen dollars an hour, and that between my sister and her husband they make almost fifty. We cannot afford as much as they can. If you don't wanna do it, say so!11
So, needless to say I called Krysty back and asked her what the fuck her deal is. She, of course, lied as usual, and denied ever saying anything. I am so sick of her. She did this before with personal info I shared with her. She has such a big mouth, and more than two-thirds of what comes out is lies, or a secret she wasn't supposed to tell. Fucking stupid.12
After Morgan and Mom got into it they both called me too. Morgan left a message stating she had pissed mom off, and I needed to call her. So, I called her. We talked awhile, and it was nice. She is where I am. Just tired of the drama. She asked me to call mom back to see how she was coping. So, I called mom. Mom was not coping well. She said my sister could shove our daddy up her ass...sigh. 13
I had a long talk with my mother. I explained to her that both her and dad have issues they need to change within themselves. And, that no matter how much she wanted him to do all the changing, she needed to be honest with herself. The truth is, they do BOTH have MANY issues. I explained that in order to see anything change in my dad, she had to first change herself. Her attention was not where it needed to be. 14
See, we can spend a lifetime trying to change another person, and never succeed. Never. The only thing we can control or change is ourself. Once we decide how to make ourselves happy, and change what we should then, and only then, will others see that change. They will either grow with you, or stay where they are. Either way, you have become a better you. I told her we don't want to be put in the middle anymore, and she cried. Walked down to Krysty, and gave her money to buy her a blunt. Yup, smoke another toke and pretend life isn't happening before your eyes. 15
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God love ya, Trina girl!
Your plate is wayyy more than full! -
It is a heavy burden that you bear...
Tell them this...
Tell them that you have come up with a solution to solve all of their problems and add extra income for your family at the same time! Tell them that the next time they come to your front door, there will be private door with a sign above it just to see you, so if you are still expected to resolve all of their issues, you should be licenced by now based on years of experience, therefore you will now be charging the going rate for phycologist which is $80-$100 per hour (I just looked it up)
so, bring a checkbook, or better yet, cash, and have a seat in the waiting area and after your dinner is cooked, your husband and children are fed and in bed following quality time, you will be right with them!
You cannot allow them to keep doing this to you.
You deserve a happy and peaceful life with YOUR family...Family is one thing and we do have our obligations, but you are going way beyond the call of duty and you have to consider your own health and well being and the needs of yourself and your own family first...You can bet that they do.. Do they ever put Trina first????
Just food for thought my friend...
Lynda
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Ugh, I hate facebook, but I find that I have a page too lol.
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Wow, you have a lot of things happening in your life. My parents split when I was two, so I never really had to deal with all that hooplah. As far as the babysitting, she is the type of person I would bitchslap. I hate people that say shit behind your back and then lie to your face. Your kids cannot be all that bad to take care of, maybe she's just too immature to be babysitting kids when she's a child herself. Anyhoo...I hope things get better for you.
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You know, I don't drive, I don't call anyone, and I don't bother people with my problems. My childhood sucked. Mom was always having panic attacks, step-dad drinking, doing drugs, stealing from us, beating us. They cheated on each other constantly. So, I grew up wanting to be different. I have not accomplished a complete cycle breaking, but I have broken most of them. I am so unlike the rest of my large, dysfunctional family. My husband always says he cannot believe I came from them. Even now, I have a facebook page up too, cause my mom is still upset, and wants to talk...sigh. Thanks for reading my ramble. THIS is how I vent my drama...lol.
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