Well I officially hate school now. The stupid teachers separated me and my friend Noel. So now were not going to be together in the same group for now on we will be in different groups. Also we are going to have different lunch periods. Ugh I hate it so much. I am so upset thinking about all the memories that we cherished. What if they start to fade? What if we lost contact with each other when I graduate high-school. What's going to happen to our friendship? Well someone else be closer to her than me? Well someone steal her away from me? I don't know anymore. I feel like crying again. I feel so hurt inside. Not depressed just really sad that they are doing this to us knowing it's my last year.... We won't be seeing each other a lot unless my grandma lets me visit her and such but she lives in a bad neighbor or whatever and ugh. She can come to my new house though but it still makes me sad. I mean were so used to being together all the time and now they want to tear us apart. Last year we wasn't together and it hurt us too badly but now that we re-joined it kills us to be apart. I am afraid to lose her. She means so much to me, more than she will ever know. I am be upset for awhile... I don't know what to do now. Or who to talk to now. Because she was the only person I really talked to. Now I am going to have to start talking to Chelsea more. She my friend and everything but she doesn't understand me the way Noel does. I feel so broken inside. I feel like apart of me is being taken away... She the peanut butter to my toast. Now she gone...forever and apart of me is too. I don't want to go into depression because I am tired of it and I am tired of seeing it. But god dammit why are teachers so mean? They don't know what it feels like to have someone who means a lot to you and you can't live without them. You can't breathe without them. Just thinking about all this makes me miss her more... I feel like crying my heart out and the teachers don't even cared. I even begged them to keep us together and that we would do better but they didn't care. I hate the way school is going. Nothing feels right anymore.. Everything is holding me down so I won't try anymore.... *cries softly* WHY THE HELL IS LIFE SO HARD? I don't know what to do at the moment but I know my spirit is finally crushed and I am crying inside.... Everything is falling apart nothing feels right anymore everything is wrong now... The only thing I have to keep her in my memories are... pictures and old conversations we had during class... I hate my life right now... *sighs and wipes her tears* 1
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All of happiness just died out for school now. The only time I am going to be happy is when I talk to her or the love of my life. Ugh I am so upset right now. I can't believe they are doing this to us. >.< It's not fair the other group has done more damaged and they are not getting seperated! Ricky is upset about leaving Bayron. See everyone has someone close to them. Life sucks right now so much. I feel all alone... ugh it's going to be hard without my bestie ♥ my broken heart now bleeds.... 
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- Maria[the broken one] ♥5
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