Tears stain my pillow again tonight this time I cry for another reason.
Your in pain so much pain I feel it everytime I talk with you.
Even though I am not near you.
It breaks my heart knowing there is nothing I can do.
I watch as you tear yourself apart along with my heart.
Even though I tried so hard to help each and everyone of you.
But tell me how can I help when you don't even hear my words beging and pleading for you to stay.
Please fight to live another day.
You raise that blade you slice through your flesh one more time don't you know,you are not just spilling yours but mine.
So cut me deeper I say for one day you may cut to deep you end your life not only did you kill you.
You kiled me too for your death would devastate me beyond anything.
What was it for I silently ask to end your pain well what about mine if you decide to cross that line, What legacy did you leave all you did was leave me.
What were you born for you will never know if you decide to go.
Do you wish to see me cry and blame myself, hoping to die.
Asking myself ,oh why couldn't I just get threw you ment more to me than you knew.
You matter can't you see at least you matter to me.
You are worthy this is true for there is only one you.
No price can be put on just how valueable you are it streeching way beyond the stars.
I am sorry if I ever broke your trust maybe I did it out of love.
Not wishing you to becomes Earths dust, can't you just trust that someone may care for you just this much.1
To all my friends that I hold so dear to my heart know I love you all and you all are apart of me and to lose anyone of you would hurt more than words could ever express.
Devasting me and those who love you more than the rest. Each and every one of you I hold dear to my heart as you have touched my life by being there for me. So thank you and realize that even when life knocks you down there is someone out there still wanting you around!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!2
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I CAN relate!!!
too many friends have done that to me too and everyday i want to cry but they will only blame and hurt themselves again so i hide it..... i hope things get better for you and your friend -
I liked what you write
Keep going
red rose -
Aww, very touching my dear sister, I do hope things turn out for the better. Please keep me in your mind and heart and we all will come through ^.^
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that was sad
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aww This was incredibly touching. Considering the other day I was one of those people who was stupid and wanted to end my life this was really touching. Thanks Heather
Thank you for everything. I promise I won't do anything to hurt you like this! 
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Well I for one am not going anywhere Piccola Only just to go on holiday's and such. No matter how many people want them around they are the ones that need convincing of it for them to stay, which I think if they read this, they will know that there is someone out there that cares a great deal about them. You have a big heart Piccola even though you don't beleive that you do.
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It's a powerful piece, Searra.
People rarely realise the damage they do to others by acting upon themselves.... They think by committing suicide they're solving problems and easing pain, but what about those left who have to deal with the pain of losing that person? To me, it's inconsiderate, but I can say that...I've attempted it before myself, so see the error of my ways
Anyways, Well done and Kudos for putting your emotions and feelings on show.
Friends are family we weren't blessed with having....
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WONDERFUL! you are such a caring person!
if you ever need to talk, im here hun
stick with your heart,
be true to yourself.
~aly
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