Dawn of a new day

I have decided to start writing a journal on here. For the past few years I have had writers block when it comes to poetry. Its like it was a phase in my life, and now its gone. I still love poetry, but feel no inspiration. It was like therapy to me, but now that my life is way better and I feel better about myself I don't need that therapy anymore. I still crave to be able to write like I used to, a part of me feels its sheer laziness on my part. But, mostly its a fear of failure. Usually I'll give up easily and end of erasing what I wrote, thinking its a piece of garbage. It's the perfectionist in me. A week ago I wrote a little snipet of a thought in the poetry section, and I realize I still have potential as a writer. I feel that by writing in a journal it will help me to tap into the lost art of poetry. Another desire is for me to be able to write songs. I've always wanted to be able to write in that format successfully. I've always wanted to sing and I have a decent voice. Sometimes I want to be larger than life..I wish my shyness wouldn't get in the way of persuing something I love. I guess I could rant and rave all day long about how I'm not living up to my potential. But I feel that life is a process of failures and successes, there are no straight inclines or declines. There are leaps and valleys. That's what life is about. Not one person in the world has completly got it made. We all face challenges and set backs, we are not infallable. I have hope for my future.1

Melissa 2