Another day,
Another time,
I pray this life soon becomes more than a downward spiral through out time
Please don't claim to love me I don't want that pain.
Don't tell me you want to be there to make it all better than turn around and tell me things like adbortion and adoption you know I hate those words.
You know why I can't do adbortion, I can't do it is killing an innocent.
You know why adoption I can't do because my Mom basically did it to me.
You that it makes a child feel adbandoned, unwated, and unloved.
If you really loved me you would walk away, you wouldn't beg me to stay if I fell in love with another.
I never asked you to love me maybe, I am not ready for those words My past scars from love still bleed the cuts were left very deeply.
My heart can't take much more pure of heart yet broken spirit leaves me wishing for nothing but the numbness to come.
I see the worlds problems around me I try to help and I try to cheer everyone up.
Never putting myself above another, yet wanting, craving happiness for myself once in my life. What is it like to truely be loved, to be wanted, to belong I wish I knew.
Maybe I deserve this I don't know.
Maybe I am the monster that everyone seems to want to think I am.
Maybe their wish will come true and the stress will finally just take me away.
To a world no longer filled with pain, or darkness.
All I know is I can't take another day like this.
I wish I could scream yet none hears.
My tear no one sees through the darkness.
I fake my happiness to keep others happy.
Yet can't you see this mask is failing I am falling apart.
Shattered I am like a piece of fragile art.
Love me hate me from the start I don't care cause I am no longer whole yet torn apart.
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be strong. love that child with your whole heart.
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......this thing is deep i agree with almost all of it p.p
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Is it me that's getting into your head or is it you getting into mine lol
Just don't let others see, its better for them and for you.
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I wish I was stronger but now a days Not so much
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You will prove just how strong you are when that baby arrives
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I hope so Mommy I don;t want this child to be like me or it's daddy I want better for it.
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no one can be exactly like everyone else, don't worry they will have a character all of their own
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God for willing lol
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