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10/08/09

So, David and I called it quits. Truth be told I've never been so relieved in all my life. The phone call took all of 10 minutes and in which I told him thatI was tired of feeling like I had to change my feelings in order to deal with his way of life. He hung up on me. (ha! so funny--it's like a pattern with him) Good freaking riddance.1

So now, onto something wonderful or should I say someone wonderful. In the last 4 years I have been struggling to find myself again. After the catastrophe with Josh(my ex-fiance of 3 years), I discovered that going nuts and partying like an idiot made me lose everything I stood for and left all my responsibilities in the dirt and although I took a couple hard raps on the head and heart; I am thankful to have gone through most of the experiences becasue they all have made me realize the person I want to be and the person to stay away from. I am currently twenty-five years of age and have found another soul just like me. He is the most wonderful-est, passionate, good-natured person I have ever been with and I am so blessed to have him grace my life with his presence. His name is Tommy and wow, just writing his name makes me squirm and crinkle my toes which is what I've been doing for one month and a week now and I am betting that it won't be changing anytime soon. I haven't had this type of strong emotion since I was with Josh. I can't even begin to explain it and we are doing so well together. His birthday is the 25th of January which is exactly one day after mine and he's one year younger. It's kind of funny and it reminds me of my maw-maw and paw-paw; their birthday was the same day and she was older than him. 2

He is going into the air force on December 15th of this year which is distressing to me, but I know he signed on wayyy before he ever officially met me. We used to see each other at Rackem's all the time when he worked there, and we had only recently started talking towards the last days of David and I's relationship.  Not talking like dating mind you, just basically venting all of my aggarvations and fears to him...we began to hang out a little bit and I discovered that we had a lot in common. More than I realized, actually.3

But all in all, I am extremely happy and I promise...I won't leave you in the dark dearest journal.4

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(I will proceed to add more later I promise.)6

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