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&it hits me all at once.

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i t a l w a y s h a p p e n s .2

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This morning, my phone fell out of my pocket on the bus ride to school. By the time I realized it was gone; so was the bus.6

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I talked to Cindy in first period. She asked me how me and Brandon were doing, if we were dating or not. I just explained a huge conversation me and him had on the phone, because apparently; he has to think about it.10

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Then, in AP world history, Brandon kicks Kelsey out of her seat so he can sit behind me. Basically; Fail. Then he gets mad cause I won't talk to him in class. My college class. So, we talk. 14

whatever.15

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Fifth period: team sports.19

Worst hour of the day. Hands down.20

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I was telling Jamie about something that happened yesterday, so she starts talking about how she heard some things about Brandon. I just laughed, but she kept going. She said the Caitland was telling her about a girl that liked him but wasn't supposed to. So, I was telling her about something Cindy told me and she says; "Oh!, That was her name, Cindy."22

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And Kenneth was talking about the same thing at lunch.24

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I'm just waiting for her to tell me.26

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sophomore confession #1:30

I kissed him today. Even after I wouldn't last week.31

I think it was subconciously me trying to stay on solid ground;32

trying my best not to push him away and lose him.33

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I hate myself.35


fml.36

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