I am venting!!! I am being pulled in mutiple directions I don't know what else to do except for one thing but that would be very bad and I don't know what would happen to summer. Okay well I finaly got my fiance up here and the only way he gets to stay up here is if he gets a job and if he doesn't I'll never see him again. AND WHAT PEOPLE DON"T SEEM TO GET IS THAT I AM IN LOVE WITH HIM!!!! ONLY HIM!!!! I have a baby to think about so I had to drop out of school so I could take care of her.... I didn't have to but I don't think I could deal with anyone. I have to help my fiance find a job and I have people yelling at me!! I mean seriously he may be 44 years old and me 19 but age is just how long you've been on this earth it means nothing in my eyes. And if he can't find a job by the 15th he'll go back to the carnival but he'll be in texas and I'll never see him again. Some have said I am thinking from inbetween my legs we'll they obviously don't know me all that well. If it wasn't for the fact that I have my little girl I would probably end it all and that would be the end of it, at least for me..... But of course I am to chicken to do it so yeah I may have to resort to other things..... no drugs or brew but something I used to do but I'll keep that to my self.....crap can't do that....Creed....hmmmmm... I can't smoke even though my nerves are shot and when I try to write a poem I get frustrated and pissed off.... I want to marry my honey but it doesn't seem like that is going to happen. If this doesn't work out I will never love again (except my daughter). Honestly I just want to give up and wake up from this bad dream. I want to break down and cry......T_T..... I don't want him to go but I guess it will end up happening no matter what I do. I feel trapt like I have no say in my own life. I know... I'LL LET OTHERS RUN MY LIFE!!!! I WON"T MAKE ANYMORE DECISIONS AT ALL, NEVER AGAIN!!! I'LL BECOME A BRAIN DEAD ZOMBIE!!!!
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You knew the rules before you had him come here, my daughter.. You did not see fit to let him know.
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me pissed need I say more.
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me pissed need I say more.
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me pissed need I say more.
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me pissed need I say more.
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me pissed need I say more.
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