ok everyone so the last few years have been a challenge for me.1
I have many goals. I have alot of dreams. I am not sure what to do though.2
I will how ever not stand for doing nothing with my life.3
my goals and dreams of what I want to be and what I want out of life have changed almost every day.4
my dreams have included5
becoming an EMT6
becoming a Paramedic7
becoming a mortician8
becoming a pharmacist9
becoming a writer10
becoming an egyptologist11
performing on broadway (this was when I was younger---not at all what I want to do now by the way)12
becoming a surgeon or anastisaoligist13
becoming a vet14
writing a memoir of my life and or a novel and short stories15
opening my own buissness16
becoming a lawyer17
becoming a doctor18
and many more things....19
I don't know what I want to do, I mean a few of these I can do all at the same time....I am not sure which would be best for me. But I am made of dreams and alot of them too.20
I want to be happy, thats all I want. I want to never have to worry about money....21
but my problem is I dont like to wait.22
I currently can not work because I have a juvenille record and it can be erased when I turn 20...every where does background checks so it sucks.23
I am finding out slowly how hard it is to succeed in the world...and my dreams just change every day....24
what do I do? which dream do I pursue first? how do I channel all of this...I start one dream, get bored with it change my mind pursue another one and the same thing happens. If I could do them all at once I would be happy, but that is just not possible.25
I am confussed I am lost, it is killing me. I am not sure what I want to do, who I want to be, who I am now, or what I want to become....26
what would you guys suggest???27
all your help would be appreciated28
thanks and much love29
andi
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What about school? A community college. A general studies program, that would give you a taste of this, that, and everything. The record won't stop you, and the sampling of different classes would help you focus into what it is you feel most drawn to. You don't have to declare a major until the second year. There is financial aid that could help with your tuition and expenses, and it would give you some structure that would balance out your focus and life rhythms.
Andi...I'm 52 and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. Its all good..its the journey and the discovery. Its all full of twists and turns. Just remember that you only have to take one step and the next step gets ya where you're going!
I am in the health care industry as a radialogic technologist. Been in it for almost 20 years. Before that I was in human services as a crisis intervention counselor. And all during it, I've written, painted, and generally dreamed of being other things too. All in all, its been quite a ride. So take a deep breath and embrace it all. One simple step...one simple day...at a time, my friend. Its all good. -
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well I actually had a two year full ride scholarship to a community college, although I through it away b.c my mom had me to stay home to take care of my aunt , she is in need of full assistance and lifting...and no one in my fam wants her to go to a nursing home, so i was forced to stay home...
so I lost my scholarship, and now I have to pay a full qauters tuition before I am eligible for any kind of finacial assistance, as I am on acamedic probation, but I may be eligible again after finishing and paying for those classes for my scholarship again...
I start driving this month, so things should get a little better...
I guess my problem is I dont like to be patient, I like to have climbed all the stairs before hand...and I know I can not do this.
I just want to be successful in my life time, to make alot of money and not have to worry about each pay check to pay check, to be able to help those in need with my money, and to be noticeable and recognized for something I accomplished.
I am really appreciative of your advice though. I may try and job shadow even. but I think I am going to take my EMT Classes in january when they start, altho I hate waiting...but I think i will like the emt work field, and also it is just a stepping stone for more possibilitys...
thanks so much
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andi
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Well lets see, I think find out what you really want to do, not just a thought, not just this will do, not something that is 100% imposible to do, like flying to Mars, but something you really want to do that lies right at the bottom of your heart. Having said all that, start somewhere small but with the big goal, the big dream always in mind. One step, one rock, one pathway, one doorway and little by little you will get to wherever you want to go and be. The life you want doesn't happen over night, gosh I wish it did, then we'd all be fighting each other for that one spot on that magical beach, and that wouldn't be so cool, would it now? I hope you get the dream you want in the end. Take care and happy dreaming.
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