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Halfway there...

I have somehow managed to get a C in precal...which means I am passing. I have to maintain this grade in order to pass the class. I have a huge test tomorrow, which I definitely need to be studying for...1

I am trying to avoid all of the distractions thrown at me...boys, family issues, boys, and my own hobbies. It seems like I never have time to do what I need to get done, much less time to do what I want.2

Boys are a major distraction. Especially since I have a tendency to have multiple crushes at any given time. This year, I pretty much have to same crushes as last year, only plus a few more. It is very annoying, but I can't control it...however, I can choose to ignore it.3

I've realized a lot of things about my attractions to people. As a nerd, I gravitate toward other nerds. I also like guys that aren't preoccupied with being "macho." I like guys that are "misunderstood" and artistic and just overall different. I like guys that don't try too hard. They don't try to be different, they don't try to fit into some stereotype. There are just themselves. All the time. 4

Right now, a guy in my algebra II class has caught my eye...nothing will ever come of it. I really don't have time to even entertain ideas about a relationship. It's senior year, after all. I have to fill out applications and take tests and pass impossible classes and work and go to church and have time for my friends and find time to study and homework and chores...5

Senior year is totally stressing me out.6

But Thursday is my birthday. I'll be 18. I really hope my grandpa forgets or something. I don't want to have to deal with him any time in the near future...or in the distant future, actually.

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  • Inverted-Hearts
    September 27
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    Senior year IS stressful.
    Blah.
    I know the feeling.

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