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He is everything.

1

everything I've wanted for the past twelve months.2

--3

last week, he tried to kiss me.4

it took me less than three seconds to come up with a valid reason why it shouldn't happen.
my logic:5

do I really want to be the backdrop to his life for another year?6

because last year;
that was all it took.
o n e k i s s .
and I was spoken for.7


but not exactly.
because there were girls coming and going like sirens and the doppler effect was setting in.
I never kisseddatedloved any other boy,
-and it sounded like he didn't give a damn.8


NO;
thisyearwillbedifferent.9

--10

But I talked to him last night.
And he told me he didn't know what to do; what I wanted.11

and I told him:
"idon'tknow".
...
...
...what?12

he told me to think it over, tell him on monday.13


so;
here is the part where I decide if the one thing I've been chasing for twelve+ months is what I really want.
and if I want to chance losing him as a friend if it goes bad.14

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all I know; is that my decision-making skills really know how to fuck me over.16

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--19

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  • Shatter.Me.Fast
    September 30
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    Ohh My,
    I've been there.
    And it isn't easy.
    Just follow your heart.
    hope everything works outt.
    i know im like four days late....
    but still...
    i hope things are okay.

    iloveyouu(:

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