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everyone's a fucking liar nowadays.
it's all excuses that seriously come from people's mouths. whether it's an excuse for feeling something, an excuse for not feeling something, an excuse for not wanting to do something, or just a flat out fucking excuse to ditch and do something else.2
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how can you trust someone and believe them when they
make up an excuse for something. it's incredibly hard to
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this guy i liked may 2008 is just on my last fucking nerve. we used to be reallyREALLY close, and we got passed liking each other because we both knew it was never going to work, but now he's completely written me off.
i have never wanted to erase someone from my mind so badly.
he only wants me as a replacement for something.
fuckkk that.6
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my best guy friend is currently in korea, because he's in the army, and he is the ONLY one i can count on, and he's over 8000 miles away, and i miss him terribly. =[8
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my other best guy friend is on a lying spree. we were supposed to hang out yesterday. apparently he had a surprise visit from his family in florida. hah. that's believable. and he swears its true, but hes the one whos lied to me so many times before that i honestly have no idea what to believe.10
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i don't believe anything anymore.
i keep my guard up.
and everything i hear now immediately gets transformed into the possibility of a lie inside of my head. and i am just tired of not being able to trust the people closest to me. it's exhausting. and yes, of course i've lied before, i mean who hasn't? but not nearly even a forth as much as those who are supposed to be my 'best friends' have. and that's fucking pathetic.12
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gawd.
i want my license.
i want clarity.
i want the truth.15
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but apparently that's too much to ask from someone nowadays.
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Ahhhh. I know exactly how you feel. Well, maybe not exactly? But seriously.. I went through something similar. I used to talk to this guy who was in band with me, and I thought we were really close friends... but he would never really talk with me in person, only on the computer, because he would put on a mask for everyone else, and change himself, so no one could see the 'real him.' And I thought he actually started to show me 'the real him,' but right when we reached that level of trust, he pulled away from me, and started feeding me all these lies.
He led me on.. he cheated on his boyfriend to be with me. The whole thing was completely messed up. And I got hurt, really badly. I'm still hurting from it, because we never even talk at all anymore. All we can do is glare at each other. It's just sad. He was never himself with me. He always lied to me. I saw through the lies, called him out on all of them. I always tried to help him with his problems, and he never gave anything back to me in return.. other than, on occasion, saying something comforting to me. And other things, that ended up hurting me in the end, because it made me feel like an object, a means to get to happiness.
I don't think you should give up. Never stop believing and hoping, because there are other guys out there. Don't listen to what anyone else says. Just give it time. -
YA! ME TOO!
Why has it gotten this way, where people just are not trustworthy! Everyone seems to be out to get whatever from whoever they can, at any cost to the victim, themselves or the families! Is it so hard to tell the truth? I am so glad I learned, the only person responsible for my actions ..is me! I have the ability to make my own decisions and I do what is best for everyone! Sometimes feelings get hurt, but the pain is much less than one of betrayal! Great write and I feel ya!! The Shaker
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i'm sorry i know exactly what you mean.
people are so mean nowadays.
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I'm sorry you have deal with jackass liars
boys are complicated.. I'm not friends with any guys so I don't really know how to give you any advice
and I currently hate guys aka certain guy so anything I say will sound like I hate the male species completely.
but stay strong♥
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liars suck.
i'm sorry you have to deal with all that
especially without your best guy friend.
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i am so sorry, dear. ♥ ):
i feel the exact same way.
everyone's been lying to me, too, lately.
i know what it's like to not believe in anything, anymore.
i sure don't, at least when it comes to boys.
i'm here, love♥
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