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birthday.

honestly, today was not what i wanted at all. but i think im finally learning to make do with what im given, even if to me, its horrible.
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what i wanted most today was to just spend it with autumn. i should have known that wasnt going to happen. i woke up crying because she was so utterly mean to me. it was my birthday for god's sake, couldnt she pretend to be nice for one day? this constant roller coster is ridiculous. i tried so hard not to cry on the phone with her but it just happened and she apoligized.. but i dont think it means anything. so obviously, what i wanted i didnt get.2

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so many people told me happy birthday though. people that i wasn't expecting it from at all! that made me feel a little better about myself and my day. thats when i decided, i'd make the out best out of what i had.4

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i went to the movies to see this movie i really wanted to see. it came out today. sorority row. kayla went with me. it was freakin' amazing. scary but definatly held my attention and i could not guess who the killer was at all. btw, after it was over i realized it was a great movie to watch with my sister, considering the fact its about sisters and it really shows what sisters are. you just have to watch it! ♥♥6

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needless to say, autumn didnt even tell me happy birthday until about five o'clock when cherie came to see me and she just happened to be with her. and i care, more than i should and more than you will ever know, but i've decided that its not something i can control so its something i must let go.8

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maybe, just maybe, my day wasn't that bad afterall. it just depends on how you take it all. im hurt, beyond measures and so empty inside, but im trying to make the best out of it. 10

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  • Hope Angel silver member
    September 11
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    Aw I'm sorry that your birthday wasn't exactly like it was supposed to be, but I'm glad you are trying to make the best of it and trying to let it go.


    My fifteenth birthday was amazing, I was in Mexico, they gave me a pinata gave me a cake...but I wasn't happy at all, I cried. And later I was really mad at myself for ruining my fifteenth birthday. But I decided to let it go, it wasn't worth regretting, it was still amazing.
    Anyway my point in my little blurb thingy, is that you just have to focus on the good even though you're dying, and do your best to let it go.

    I love you!

    By the way I drew you a picture/card thing, I will take a picture and try to email it to you a little bit later.

  • Starz of Heaven gold member
    September 11
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    Miss you also we are well Happy Birthday

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