My mom thinks its sad that at 17 im so very jaded. She first called me jaded when i was about 12. But I guess the turns my life has taken since then haven't really helped any. She called me jaded this time because I told her I don't think Ill ever be able to fall in love anymore and that I thought that was okay because i think i could live a very decent life without love or happieness. I told her my heart really is broken, I cant feel love anymore, except love as in caring for someone. It hurts now but its a pain I can live with. I can kinda use it like a warning, 'Do not fall in love, it only leads to pain.' without feeling in my heart or happieness its easier too. It doesnt matter as much. Nothing matters as much; So when you loose it its not as bad. Its simpler. Easier too. Is it really so bad then? Being jaded? I dont really know anymore. I cant do anything about it anyway so what does it matter? I dont really know. Does anyone really know sanymore tho? Im starting to think not...
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