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distance+insecurity= me on a bad day.

so if you don't know.
i have boyfriend who is at marine bootcamp till october. 1

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so anyway like an hour ago. i got a bad feeling in my tum-tum
and i just clicked on his facebook. 3


no i know he's not a cheater, but i have had so my fudged up
relationships that i'm unsusre of my own sanity. 4

i don't know if its because i'm5

  • paranoid.
  • a loser
  • missing him alot
  • or just basically a loser face all of the above

but i don't like feeling this way especially because it looks like i don't trust him 6

and my friends would honestly say that "i do this all the time" and that "i'm going to eventually lose him by second guessing it" but excuse me if i like things to be perfect... i just like stuff to work right. 7

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because i've seen things fail... alot of times and i don't want this to fail... 9

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what is my deal?!?11

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  • Masquerade Woman
    November 26
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    I think that a lot of girls go through this when their boyfriends go away or are far away. You just have to try and trust him.

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