Lucky.

Is this what a relationship really feels like?

I never thought that something I've wanted all my life could just feel so... simple. Of course, I've dated before. I've had "boyfriends", I've hooked up, I've kissed shamelessly - But I've never quite felt this before.
Bryant is something new, something different for me. I'm officially in unchartered waters.
I feel unbelievably content just laying in his arms in my bed after school; watching him sleep while I do my hair; sitting on couches with him in the Thrift Shop, talking about our future life; squeezing into my small shower with him after a really long day; driving him home at night, while he makes fun of my driving.
It's amazing that this new relationship with this immature boy, has brought me a heaping load of self-confidence. He kisses me on the forehead and tells me that I'm beautiful; he gets this smile on his face when I wear my hair the way he likes it, acting as though he's won something; he cries at the thought of losing me.

Above everything else, I've always just wanted to experience the feeling of being wanted - and in turn, loved.
My past relationships never gave me that security. I always felt as though they were with me because they had nothing better to do, as though they were just killing some time with the next best thing to finding someone they truly did care about.
But with Bryant, it's completely surreal. It's as though he had options, and picked me above all the rest.
I never, ever want to lose this feeling.
I wish I could put our relationship in a little box with a lock and key, so I never have to think about the possibility that it could get away from me.
I love waking up and feeling like I really am pretty - because he tells me that I am.
I love that thought of "Casey, you can do it" when I'm put to the test - because he tells me that I can do it.
I love knowing that when things suck, he's there - because he tells me that he'll always be there.

I love him, flaws and all - because he loves me, flaws and all.
He's my world, and my best friend, and he's fixed all the little broken parts of my heart.



But no matter what, I'm always going to hate Family Guy and Austin Powers, but I'll watch them with him forever. Simply because he lets me lay in his arms and watch Friends every evening.

I may not believe in God, or anything like that, but I really must have made someone happy up there, to get so damn lucky.