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the closest i've ever been to normal....wahetever that is.

so... there's a lot going on now, but y'know, i now have adjusted my life a little and am dealing with it all.Xavier...led me on. didn't really want me. Oh, and my other ex put him in the E.R. by choking him until he blacked out. #6 on my speed dial is... intriguing, but maybe a little out of my league... i mean, he is a senior.But he cares and is a really good friend, and i've messed up good friendships like that too many times. #7 on my speed dial is someone who actually cares about me, who i hurt a lot because of Xavier, and who i am considering going back to... not that he'd take me. Would he? "maybe" he said. and then there's # 9 on my speed dial. he is, um, frustrating. We had a great sort of relationship over the summer, and he was really into me, like just waiting for me and Vinnie to break up. But then, before i knew Vinnie was gone, i broke his heart. And now the tables are flipped with him not wanting me and me wanting him.

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