i lost my train of thought.

This entire passage is scattered because my brain keeps thinking of other shit i feel like talking about before i fully think through the first topic.1

The brain thinks so quickly.2

Speaking is far faster than writing because one can fully express ideas in a quick and concise mannor as well as addressing every thought and feeling as soon as it pops into his or her head. The brain works much faster than the body, therefore if one were to write something down, the brain would be shelling out thoughts as the hand is trying to keep up. 3

By the time the hand is even close to writing what the brain is thinking, the brain becomes distracted, the train of thought is lost, and the mind must regain, re-think, and remind. Its only then that the hand can then continue the race. Even as the hand is writing one topic, the brain is thinking of an entirely different topic to write about. It's an endless cycle. Once one topic is down, the brain begins to question that topic, why? why? why? When why is asked, the brain thinks of millions of possiblities. As I said, endless. 4

Its obvious that we're always thinking, day and night, all the time. The question is, if we're all constantly thinking and worrying and wondering, why do we think that were all alone? Why do we have our own worlds? Why do we assume that "no one understands"??? 5

Self doubt, self esteem, self conciousness, and fear prevent us from letting ourselves communicate with others. I beleive that if these factors were set aside there would be a better understanding of, well, everything and everyone.6

If people werent afraid of being rediculed for what they thought, or bashed for what they believed in they would more likely speak their minds. If people understood that everyone has their own feelings about whats right and wrong, there would be less dispute.7

People are always going to question the validity of any statement because in reality, we dont even TRUELY know where we came from, where were going, how were getting there, or who we are. Were all just here trying to make sense of it all. We dont know shit. But most people, but not all, would rather be silent than wrong. Think back to when you were in high school, would you rather be wrong infront of the whole class, or silent and neutral? 8

Now, why are people afraid and self concious? SOO MANYY reasons. We're all born with a brain. This brain is like a clean slate. Now in a hypothetical situation, cutting out all factors that may have influenced the child (family, living situation, wealth, ect) and just basing the childs entire knowledge on mainstream media and popular culture, the child has been taught from day one to be both afraid and self concious. 9

This child grew up in a world where the television showed women depicted as flawless supermodels, and men portrayed as muscular GI Joes. A country at war with foreign faces showed on screens so theyd have someone to hate. Stores filled with "anti-aging" this, "fat-loss" that. So many rediculous standards have been set to keep us striving, surpressed, and inside of our own heads. 10

i lost my train of thought.11

Alright yeah, so my question is why do people let their self doubt get in the way of their communiation? Things would move along much quicker if people could just talk about things with one another. None of us are alone, we all understand, and its stupid to hold in things that bother you. Doing so will only make matters worse over time, DUHHH. Was that really the point of this whole damn thing? If it was then I probably didnt need to wrote so much.. but then again such a simple statement can be interpreted so many ways so i guess my interpretation need 7849 paragraphs. Okay im going to stop writing now.12

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anyway, thank you mikey for writing in my notebook months ago and inspiring this, youre a smart guy.