That night,17.07.09,I went to mend things again but as usual fail!I try another source again it did not work instead i was held responsible for whatever happen!Whatever i hear that night made me feel that my place is not here and i aint important for anyone.1
I went to bed in tears and made up my mind to go away so that everyone can live in peace!He came home at 1 am and went to bed without saying a word.I held my breath,and he slept.I stare at him and thinking all our moments we had since we know each other,our ups and downs.He meant so much to me but i feel guilty for being a burden for him as for him i die long ago and i was no more his wife but a stranger!2
I die that night because i know that night gonna be my last day in my home.Tears of blood were rolling down my cheeks,as he was playing with my hair and wish that night lasts forever.I could not tell him that tomorrow i will not be by his side because i know this is what he always wanted as he hates me.I stare stare stare at him and wanted him so much because he was asleep.I wanted so much to hug him tight but he turn his back.I kiss his shoulders and slept.3
I woke up at 7!My baby was sleeping and i ask myself should i leave or not?I know i will die without him and my life will be impossible as he is my everything thou i was not his priority.I decided to stay and try again even I dnt have his support.4
Circumstances force me leave the house that morning.I said how can I live here when i got to fight on my own,first for love now someone else is having problem because of me!If i had his support i would not leave.Its betta for me to leave and go away from everyone's life.Atleast they will live in peace now!5
I went upstairs and started to pack all my things but he did not bother to ask me why i'm going perhaps that's what he wanted.Despite my efforts to mend things,he did not want to continue our relation.He helps me with my suitcase and leaves!6
The most difficult time came.Before I step out of my home,i went to say good bye to him,my heart was tearing apart,its was the most difficult time of my life.He did not bother to come downstairs.I wish he calls my name and ask me not to go and that he loves me.I know he is not hurt as i was aint his wife anymore.I left my Choupet also.I dnt know how he could be so heartless.There was not a call no text!7
I went to bed without him by my side and the next morning when i opened my eyes i was shocked wondering where he is and realised i die yesterday.8
Now i have to fight against critisms because i land again where i should not.The one who promises to be by my side in ups and downs left me during our downs and prefer to live for himself.Even that i did fight for him but it did not work!9
Today I'm a living body without my soul because i know he will never bother to bring me back home!
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