I bottle up my emotions, and I'm tired of it. So today I'm just crying until there are no more tears. I'm crying because I feel empty. I long for a person to love me and who I love. But it seems like I will never get that person. I know I'm young, but I feel older. It's hard to explain, I have the feelings and longings of an adult. That's what it feels like to me, that I am an adult in a kids body. I desire the things that you get or do when your older. Like love, emotionally loving someone and physically loving someone. It's weird and frusturating feeling this way, especially since it's getting worse lately. I don't want to have the urges an adult has, but it's not like I can control that. I'm afraid that feeling these ways will have a really bad outcome, like something bad will happen. But I don't know what might happen, or how to stop it from happening. So I feel like I'm srewed.
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You got to follow life through and you got to get yourself through this. Adult urges will come if we like it or not, its human nature and part of growing up.
Crying lets out endorphines and actually is quite good but you are nto empty, you are a full girl who has a lot to live for.
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Thank you so much!!
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